theRHYTHMofHisHEART
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a guy
who
aka `Abiboy'
who is
His Child
just an ordinary guy
who loves Jesus
who has been living for
16years
studying @
Zhenghua Sec
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Loves..
to be with Jesus..

sleeping..
eating
and loves playing
the guitar,
the drums,
and music?

Song Playing

I Walk Beside You
by Dream Theater
album: Octavarium



tagboard


LINKS
WEBs=WhereEternityBegins

TMS WG Blog-GROW LA..(water seeds)
MILKERS WG Blog-MOOOO 'Fresh from the Farm'
Sure lo,Whatever lo.. WG Blog-aiya..WDV LALO..haiyo..
WEB-Dance Site
Alethia-Someone really reflects alot=)
Amanda Wong-SHOULD BE WONG..PLS tell me hor..great to have you back(STAY HOR!DON DISAPPEAR AGAIN),thxs for opening up to me..=)
Carolyn-'Hehaha..' A "SWEET" gerl=P
Charmaine-'I DON FREND U LAO' a caring person
Clarice-'Jaaan!' DA jie!
Erika Yap-'Yup..ok..no problem..'hehe=P YUP she is a nice girl with a cute little sister,ethel..=)she loves dogs?!n nicole DING loves her VERY MUCH..
Eunice Goh-'Hehehe!(in a SEXY VOICE)' GO EUNICE! haha..thxs for the encouragement and the LAUGHTER haha..MATHS IS COOL!=P
Ezekiel-'STOP IT JAN!' Seriously.. a great friend to have =)
Grace Wang-'Nonononononono..','concentrate jan..-_-'' ' sigh' ohya.. thxs for the SS help,i IMPROVED! YAE! THXS! =P
Jaime-'Waiwaiwai..JAI-ME's CRY-ING!!!' haha..man..she is one WILDD gerl..and HELPFUL to me in alot of areas thxs=)
Jewel-'Waiwaiwai..JEW-EL's CRY-ING!!!' QUICKSILVER GERL.. UR SIS OWE ME $10=P
Joash Chong-aka 6, cute,fun,cool and crazy guy to hang out with..LUV YA JOASH!(I AM NOT GAY,OK!=P)
Jonathan Quek-'meelinimeelinini..jarjarjar..BOOM!' all crazy abt guitars for Christ =)
Kelvin Koh-'Eee..don touch me like tht..' aka MOUSE!haha..thxs for sharing=)
Kimchi-this was a gerl who BITES me MANY TIMES..gosh..well..
Leon-RAF-FLES RAFFLES! RAF-FLES RAFFLES! Don't cha jus love RAFFLES BOYS! HA!
Michele Cheow-Hi michele(jan looks down,tiptoe) Let ur life be surrendered to God's hand=)
Millie-'SIAO ah!haha' Distant Cousin in CEFC
Muntat-Which tat in the world can talk?MUN-TAT la..=P
Naomi-Thanks for the invitation to your school's musical.. haha..=)
Nicodemus-PHD Lamer=Permenant Head Damage(Each sold seperatly)a person who encourages XD
Nicole Chooi-CHHHOOOOIII hahaha.. thxs for being patient with mua..during dance[LAST TIME='(] thxs for encouraging me smth..=)
Nicole Ding-'DING DING DING lai lai lai..wu kua $ yi ger!'haha..jk..dude..ok.. urm..dun really noe her..but met @ GDOP06!Nice gerl..who noes CLARISSA(SU "Baby gerl")haha..stay COOL! =)
Rachel LOW-'I luv Papayas..'has an APPLE FACE,is a BIG gerl now who always speaks in a LOW voice..haha=P
Sarah Chan-'SWWEEEETTTCHIIILLDDDOOFFFMMMIINNNNEEE!!' siao gerl abt guitars and ESPECIALLY Christopher Lo(she turns red when she sees him)GOSH..children..erhh..wdv xD but a nice gerl to share SECRETS with.. haha
Shirley-'urm..jan..can u help me to..(lalala)' Cheerful gerl who luvs serving God,Amen! =)
Stephanie Liew or Yeo?-'Urm..hi..(smiles UNWILLINGLY)' HEY DUDE! must catch up with you sometimes,maybe i am JUST TOO SLOW..=)cya around;)
Zephy-'Common Jan,you can do it!'Man.. thxs for pushin/encouraging me all these times in my walk and especially studies..think i would have gave up then until God sent u here..thxs brother..=)

SPIDERS-Creepy Crawlers
**Alex aka Chewy-or is it the other way round..lol..HEY THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENTS=D btw..i placed you in this section cos I DUNO WHERE ELSE TO GROUP YOU..haha!don mind uh..=P
Galvin aka Galv-TMS WG Creepy crawler
Jason aka sMonSter-Aflame FC Creepy crawler
Mark Lim aka Markudesu-Trailblazers WG Creepy crawler
Seby aka Seebay-Missions Creepy crawlers
Themis aka Themissa-Worship Ministry Creepy crawler
Theresa aka 3sa-MILKERS WG Creepy Crawler
Zai Xiang aka Zai-Newcomers Creepy crawler

TMS - my cell group

Offical Mustard Seed's WEBBY =)
Alvin-WHERE ARE YOU, BROTHER?=P
Amos-'wah!veri tired le..'Jia you!Keep growing in the Lord=)
Christopher-'REALLY?!' Glad to see you growing deeper in Jesus =)
Jonathan Lee-'PRECISELY!' HAHA! Love to see you growing deeper in the Lord and the WG=)Proverbs 4=)
Yiren-'Zhe Ko eh Laksa ah.. BEST IN KALLANG!'brother that i will always remember =)
Zebedee-'Hey Jan,can i borrow your phone,my phone kina got washed in the washin machine' wonderful to have you around =)

Other Links
SU Friends

Clarissa-XIAO MEI MEI! I MISS YOU AND THE GROUP MAN!XD
Daniel-GO DRUMMING MAN TOGETHER!=)

School Friends

Azlifa-JIA YOU FOR O's!! haha.. WORK HARD!
Isabel-YOU BACKSIDE..haha..jkjk..eh..one day go out for a drink and chat k?haha..=P
Jasmin-YES MDM!JIA YOU FOR O's!=)
Jun Kai-ONLY FOUR MONTHS TO STUDY! COMMON TRY TO STUDY MAN! JIA YOU!=)
Miss Kuek-My EL/form teacher..bet she SUFFERED alot with me around.. THANKS MISS KUEK! =P
Xavier Ong-the day i await to see you back into His arms again..=)

Friends
Cai Ling-Hope ya doing alright..=)feel free to smack me at back to say hi..=)
Hwee Ping-WOW!YOU ARE VERY MAN MAN..opS NoNoNoNOOOO..U ARE GERL! Gerl=P(in Chinese People voice,russel peters)
Joy Tan-JOY!!!JIA YOU! You CAN ONE DAY? MAKE IT TO CHURCH! A MIRICLE WILL OCCUR! haha=P
Velda Jie-WHY NV SEE ME!!! JIEJIE VELDA.. haha..

ANY MORE LINKS?
TAG ME,i'll link ya.. =D


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COMING SOOONNNN..
YOUR WAYY...
SO STAY TUNED..
(use a tunner)
Birthdays Chart

January
02 Dori, Jerome Chew
04 Junjie
09 Serene, Siang
10 Huiqi
15 Jaymond, Tim Cheah
20 Galv's mom
21 Markudesu
23 Willie Soh
24 Royston
26 Zebedee
31 Grace Wang

February
01 Ian Tan, Jieqiang
09 Tim Seow
14 Rachel LOW
17 Yvonne Ng
20 Matt Pang
21 Josh Cheow, Sabrina
22 Raph
26 Audrey

March
04 Teck Liang
05 Chris Lo, Howie
18 Darren Ong
22 Euphemia, Xav

April
04 Merissa
06 Jerome Quek, Matt Lo
09 Jon Quek
19 Leon Lim
20 Charmaine
25 Sharon

May
01 Maurice, Daniel Ho
05 Onionman
07 Lai Kheng
08 Bee Yan, Tim Wong
13 Galvin Sng!!
15 Choopoot
20 Zephy
20 Weili
21 Becks
22 Junjie Yap
25 Galv's Dad, Zai
26 Seby Ku
27 Kor! =D
29 Michelle Hui

June
06 Jon Chiang
09 Firdaus
13 Eveyln
20 David Tan
21 Sue Yi
23 Melissa
25 Clarice

July
02 Eunice, Huai Tze
03 John Pang
06 Yiren
09 Matty
14 Linyi
14 Looyi
24 Denis
29 Fang Hao
31 Henry

August
03 Meihua
04 Ezekiel
09 Paul
13 Daddy!!!!! =D
15 Kel Tan
23 Christabel Chan
26 Janice
27 Jon Lee
29 Barnabas, Cai Ling
31 Chris Khew

September
04 Vincent Ho
06 Guoren
07 Michele Cheow
11 RayXz
12 Sue
15 Alex Saw
16 Kelvin Hor
20 Alvin Teo

October
01 Michelle Fong
02 Gabriel
05 Adrian
08 Huifen
09 Cindy
10 David Leong, Carolyn Khew
12 Joy
13 Tim Chng
14 Amos Soon, Joseph
21 Fern
24 Clarence
29 sMonSter, Kel Koh
29 Mark Chng
30 Gideon
30 Samuel

November
05 Sarah
08 Josh Cheng
09 Titus
09 Raymond Tan
10 Themis
13 Peter Isaac
16 Theresa
19 Huai Wern
19 Esther

December
02 Mummy!!!!!!=D
05 Mingxuan
09 Clarissa(SU)
11 Chewy
12 MunTat, Ben Teo
15 Joy Tan
17 Joash
24 David Chiam
28 Hwee Kiat


If I have
MISSED YOU OUT
(Yes you! GOON HEAD=P)

PLEASE!
TELL ME!!!=D
And thank you
for your listening ear with us..
BYEBYE!!
CREDITS.

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

The "One" Eyed Mama

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment... My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell...Anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school..It was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. how could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out, the next day at school... "your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so, I said to my mom, "mom.. why don't you have the other eye?! If you're only gonna make me a laughingstock, Why don't you just die?!!!" My mom did not respond..

I guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time.. maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but i didn't think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.

So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.. Then i studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, i got married. I bought a house of my own. then I had kids, too.. Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.
This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when..

What?! Who's this?! ...it was my mother....still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And i asked her,
"Who are you?! I don't know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!"

"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight. Thank goodness... she doesn't recognize me.. I was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went. After the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity

There, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

My son... I think my life has been long enough now.. and...I wont visit Seoul anymore...but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.. and I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school....for you...

And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldn’t stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye… so i gave you mine…I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did.. the couple times that you were angry with me,..I thought to myself, 'It's because he loves me..'

My son... oh, my son... I don't want you to cry for me, because of my death. Please don't cry...my son, I love you so much .

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

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