Paths of Stepping Stones

We've MOVED! We? You? Where? When? Why?

2007-03-28T02:55:00.000+08:00

We've MOVED! We? You? Where? When? Why?

I've offically moved over to multiply, well.. it's easier i guess? haha.. yup.. and its not that i do not wana post or something.. basically.. don't really have the energy or time to upkeep my template here... gosh.. i'm sounding like my mum.. MAN!

okok.. do check that out more... and.. yup.. the link for it is....
http://k126.multiply.com/

I'll try adding in a tagboard or smth.. but.. cant promise.. quite new to this.. kk.. later pals! =))

Jan Siging off here for the last time (SHOULD BE LA)

What does Jesus mean to me?

2007-01-13T01:59:00.001+08:00

What does Jesus mean to me?

Ponding questions i thought i should blog about.

Well here are a few,
-My Father who is watching over me, loving me
-A God in control, if you let Him to.

-My saviour

For now that's not just that but more of a new start, a new revolution.

I got to admit that He has changed me so much that i can't even believe or know it myself. But some things are yet to be changed, well lets just say, have you allow Him yet?

P.S to all webs (and spiders too) : I'm sorry for what i've done, doing and am going to do to you. Base on my actions, my words and even sometimes my emotions. I hope you would give me the time for Him to change me, it's not going to fast but i'm sure it'll be a great stepping stone for you and me to encounter=)

History

By:Matthew West

It's been a bad day
You've been looking back
And all you can see is everything
you wish you could take back
All your mistakes
A world of regrets
All of those moments
you would rather forget
I know it's hard to believe
Let me refresh your memory

Chorus:
Yesterday is history
And history is miles away
So, leave it all behind you
But let it always remind you
of the day The day that love made history

You know you can't stay right
where you fell
The hardest part is forgiving yourself
But let's take a walk
into today
And don't let your past get in the way

Would you believe
that you are history in the making,
in the making?

Every choice that you are making
Every step that you are taking
Every chain that you are breaking
History is in the making
Every word that you are saying
Every prayer that you are praying
Every chain that you are breaking
History is in the making
History is in the making
History is in the making

A Hard work's calling

2006-11-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

A Hard work's calling

Key:A or Capo fret 2 played in key:G

Verse 1 (G, D, Em,C, D)
These was the years in my life that spent in
Seeing red and black flowing over me
Laughter,anger and joy. that's none that will change
Time was the thing that will part us

Seeing the life that we lived in the class
Made all hopes on us, put it all to waste
Cries of mercy from all our teachers
Begging us to study hard

Bridge (Am, Em, Cadd9, D - Cadd9, G, Am, D)
I couldn't see how they'll last
I couldn't hope for more, but for them to change
In my heart, i see their lives
Being hold by a God who loves them most

Chorus (G, Em, Cadd9, D) [Cadd9, G, D]
I know there's a God hears their cries
In despair, and in joy
God hear my cry and give them that hope
In their hearts, and their broken spirit
That they'll be filled with your love and strength
That one day they'll see how much you love them

A hard work's call

Verse 2
Life is unfolding, time is still running
When they realised, how much time was left
Flipping books and looking for answers
Thats was what they finally did to pass

Hopes are layed low, and they feel like dying
At those point time, they went back to sleep
Bugging them to wake up, was Joanne
Leaving us with "press on class"

End (G, D, Em, Cadd9, D)

A Hard work's calling
A hard work's calling

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This is one song, that will always be my prayer for you guys out there 4E4... this is the song i confess all my feeling towards you people. Trying to change that mindset, but it still remains until when i had lifted you people up into His hands... that i realised how blessed i am to have you guys with me..=D i really do mean it.. and whelther you guys hate Christ a not.. He still loves you.. and i will always.. keep each and every 40 of you in prayer... right here in my heart.. take care my brothers and sisters... For this is the Hard Work's Calling to you=)

My Brothers forever be=)

2006-10-23T12:16:00.000+08:00

My Brothers forever be=)

2006-10-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

At the Cross
Mighty to save - Hillsongs

Verse 1
Oh Lord You
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Verse 2
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

Chorus
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

Verse 3
You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

Bridge
You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

Verse 4
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

Souls?

2006-10-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

Souls?

Oh.. btw.. HI to those suddenly come to know about my blog.. gosh.. haha.. i must write more SALTED entries from now on.. haha..

Anyways.. for those who are surprised with my entries.. well.. THATS ME! haha..=D

Ok.. back to the topic.. SOULS? well.. was just thinking about this.. about my friends, my family members and my close ones.. its kina of funny if you think of it.. you may think i pray a lot.. especially for my love ones(family,close ones and friends) but.. i don't..

I came to a point that i found out(about myself) that, all i ever prayed for is mainly myself, my problems and my studies and etc.. ya.. kina of weird actually.. i mean i have saying/thinking about all the ideas i can do to help to just be able to bring them to church.. but.. one thing i have NEVER once accomplished.. and that is to just be able to spend at least a minute to pray for them..i'm not counting those times when we are called to pray for them during service..

Just to share with you people, that recently on sunday, i went back to my aunty's house for my great aunt's birthday.. and she REALLY missed me.. well.. i haven't been seeing her for like the past 6 months? ya.. and.. when i saw my aunties, uncles and even my cousins.. i came to know that.. each and everyone of them.. are Lost souls..why do i say lost souls? i had a chat with each and everyone of them.. and my heart grieves when i found out many of them.. are like so called searching for something to live on.. to just be able to hold on to..

my cousins.. were like smoking, drinking.. all having fun.. but WHY i ask myself.. why are they searching when they know that Jesus is the answer? i mean like why are they trying to search for that pleasure which would just last them for only AWHILE.. why? why?

I realised only one thing.. that is i have not Prayed enough for them..

Galatians 2:20-21

Why must season with salt?

2006-09-27T02:41:00.000+08:00

Why Must season with salt?

'When will we understand that we've only one life to make things right, that we'll never again see the moments that've passed? When will we realise that we don't have to pretend to be someone that we really aren't? When will we figure out that the many selfish things we do to protect our pride actually brings more hurt to everyone in the end? When will we realise that we don't always have to be right? When will we understand that it's pointless to struggle on our own to live that perfect life? When will we ever figure out that sometimes we just can't make it on our own? When will we ever grasp the fact that God's the solution we've all been looking for, but overlooked and rejected all along?'
~By Christopher Khew~
`Abiboy': =) yup.. God is our solution to our questions.. but question here, that we have all not answered and done yet.. Then Why are we still holding onto those things? Surrender..

I totally agree with chris..(and myself) in fact we tend to forget what's there in our hands.. right at our side.. ok.. let just look at our lives and find out why..

What do we pursue in life?
-Results
-Skills
-Money
-Things we want
-Attention
-Love
-.....

Ok.. and there's still a long list of things that goes on... anyway.. typical singaporean will pursue all these things.. but typical christians do pursue all these things.. whelther you like it a not.. ITS A FACT! haha.. and this is all part of our nature..YOU CANT DENY IT! and if you look at in this way.. we people love to say, "Oh.. i want to change the world for God!" , "I want to tell the whole world about Jesus/His Love for me!" and true enough most will carry this out for a while yadadadada.... but after a while you have to agree with me that SOME will end up doing it for another reason... pursueing something else..(although we say, we are doing this for God). For the other rest... hopefully it is true that they are pursueing for the things of God from their heart. Being satisfied with God, and through that its an act of worship onto the Lord.

Ok.. back to the "half-header" why is this happening.. well.. basically our world is ever so much changing and influencing people all around the world.. its a thing we can't avoid. And that we sometimes tend to get excited and rush into things..and we miss the whole process of building our firm foundations. Its pretty common among youths and now even in adults. Well.. this is why we tend to change our sense of direction in life,

and we got to take note that we are beings that are looking for something to fill up that DEEP sense of emptyness, which we try using money, results, achievements, music and many other stuff to fill that up.. NO! it won't work! why? Let me simply put it this way, God created us with that emptyness..that only the GREATEST LOVE can fill, can mend up. And i'm sure you all know the Love is from God, Jesus...

Lets look at those rich business man... they are always pursueing for money, businesses.. never ending.. and for that until now.. and in the future, they can NEVER NEVER fill that emptyness in their heart...

And like what i replied chris.. i say to you... SO why are we still holding onto all these... and sometimes we tend to miss out the MOST important ingredient in our life, which is the salt.. God.. our salt...

Q:Why must we be season with salt in our lives..?

A:Because it is the ingredient of our lives.. God is our salt of our lives.. =)

'Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.' Colossians 4:2-6

Have you surrendered yet?

Listen Slowly

2006-09-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

Listen Slowly

In his book Stress Fractures, Charles Swindoll writes:

I vividly remember some time back being caught in the undertow of too many commitments in too few days. It wasn't long before I was snapping at my wife and our children, choking down my food at mealtimes, and feeling irritated at those unexpected interruptions through the day. Before long, things around our home started reflecting the pattern of my hurry-up style. It was becoming unbearable.

I distinctly recall after supper one evening the words of our younger daughter, Colleen. She wanted to tell me about something important that had happened to her at school that day. She hurriedly began, "Daddy-I-wanna-tell-you-somethin'-and-I'll-tell-you-really-fast."

Suddenly realizing her frustration, I answered, "Honey, you can tell me … and you don't have to tell me really fast. Say it slowly."

I'll never forget her answer: "Then listen slowly."

—Mike Schafer in Fresh Illustrations for Preaching & Teaching (Baker), from the editors of Leadership.

The Spider Web

2006-09-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

The Spider Web

During one of the many Reformation battles, a young soldier found himself and his army being soundly defeated by the enemy. He and his comrades hastily retreated from the battlefield in defeat, running away in fear of their very lives.

The enemy gave chase. The young man ran hard and fast, full of fear and desperation, and soon found himself cut off from his comrades. The soldier eventually came upon a rocky ledge containing a cave.

Knowing the enemy was close behind, and that he was exhausted from the chase, he chose to hide there. After he crawled in, he fell to his face in the darkness, desperately crying to God to save him and protect him from his enemies. He made a bargain with God. He promised that if God saved him, he would serve Him for the remainder of his days.

When he looked up from his despairing plea for help, he saw a spider beginning to weave its web at the entrance to the cave. As he watched the delicate threads being slowly drawn across the mouth of the cave, the young soldier pondered its irony. He thought,

"I asked God for protection and deliverance, and He sent me a spider instead. How can a spider save me?"

His heart was hardened, knowing the enemy would soon discover his hiding place and kill him. Soon he did hear the sound of his enemies, who were now scouring the area looking for those in hiding.

One soldier with a gun slowly walked up to the cave's entrance. As the young man crouched in the darkness, hoping to surprise the enemy in a last-minute desperate attempt to save his own life, he felt his heart pounding wildly out of control.

As the enemy cautiously moved forward to enter the cave, he came upon the spider's web, which by now was completely strung across the opening. He backed away and called out to a comrade, "There can't be anyone in here. They would have had to break this spider's web to enter the cave. Let's move on."

Years later, this young man, who made good his promise by becoming a preacher and evangelist, wrote about that ordeal.

What he observed has stood by me in times of trouble, especially during those times when everything seemed impossible:

"Where God is, a spider's web is as a stone wall. Where God is not, a stone wall is as a spider's web."

"For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things." - Luke 12:30

Rules from God

2006-09-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

Rules from God

1. Wake Up !!

Decide to have a good day. "Today is the day the Lord hath made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalms 118:24

2. Dress Up !!

The best way to dress up is to put on a smile. A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks. "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at outward appearance; but the Lord looks at the heart." I Samuel 16:7

3. Shut Up!!

Say nice things and learn to listen. God gave us two ears and one mouth, so He must have meant for us to do twice as much listening as talking. "He who guards his lips guards his soul." Proverbs 13:3

4. Stand Up!!... For what you believe in. Stand for something or you will fall for anything..

"Let us not be weary in doing good; for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good..." Galatians 6:9-10

5. Look Up !!...

To the Lord. "I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

6. Reach Up !!...

For something higher. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path." Proverbs 3:5-6

7. Lift Up !!...

Your Prayers. "Do not worry about anything; instead PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING." Philippians 4:6

JIA YOU! 2 Months to O's!

2006-08-28T02:24:00.000+08:00

JIA YOU! 2 Months to O's!

We can do it.. really! Trust God! Need someone to study? can try me.. i guess haha.. lol.. Its the time to MUG MUG MUG and Trust Trust Trust Trust.. guess sometimes we really do rely on ourselves too much.. lets RELY ON GOD!

DO YOUR BEST AND HE'LL DO THE REST!

Yup.. if Let us learn to lift one another in prayer to really built our trust and strength from Jesus our Lord=) OH! AND STOP READING BLOGSITES OR MSNing NOW.. haha..

For those who are like REALLY tired, DEPRIVED, demoralised or feel like giving up... PRAY! Get someone to keep you in prayer too!=) And if God can shape this universe, He definately CAN SHAPE YOUR PROBLEM, your weakness into your STRENGTH! =)Just trust His heart=)

'29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.'

Isaiah 40:29-31

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'

Phil 4:13

THE LORD'S BASEBALL GAME

Freddy and the Lord stood by to observe a baseball game. The Lord's team was playing Satan's team.

The Lord's team was at bat, the score was tied zero to zero, and it was the bottom of the 9th inning with two outs. They continued to watch as a batter stepped up to the plate named 'Love.'Love swung at the first pitch and hit a single, because "Love never fails."

The next batter was named Faith, who also got a single because Faith works with Love.

The next batter up was named Godly Wisdom. Satan wound up and threw the first pitch. Godly Wisdom looked it over and let it pass: Ball one. Three more pitches and Godly Wisdom walked because he never swings at what Satan throws.

The bases were now loaded. The Lord then turned to Freddy and told him He was now going to bring in His starplayer. Up to the plate stepped Grace. Freddy said, "He sure doesn't look like much!"

Satan's whole team relaxed when they saw Grace. Thinking he had won the game, Satan wound up and fired his first pitch......... To the shock of everyone, Grace hit the ball harder than anyone had ever seen! But Satan was not worried; his center fielder let very few get by.

He went up for the ball, but it went right through his glove, hit him on the head and sent him crashing on the ground; the roaring crowds went wild as the ball continued over the fence . . for a home run!

The Lord's team won!

The Lord then asked Freddy if he knew why Love, Faith and Godly Wisdom could get on base but couldn't win the game. Freddy answered that he didn't know why.

The Lord explained, "If your love, faith and wisdom had won the game, you would think you had done it by yourself. Love, Faith and Wisdom will get you on base but only My Grace can get you Home: 'For by Grace are you saved, it is a gift of God; not of works, lest any man should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9

Psalm 84:11, For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord will give grace and glory; no good things will He withhold from those who walk uprightly."

Blogging Personality

2006-08-24T03:11:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with your visitors your adoring fans.
At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners.
And while you like attention, you value your privacy.
You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

hmm.. quite true le.. haha.. got this from nicodemus's multiply.. its just the other side of me.. =)

Give Thanks..

2006-08-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

Give Thanks..

I guess this phrase is rather easy to say, but is one most difficult thing to do. It seems like all the time, we are always trying too hard(some not at all) just to "satisfy" our "needs" which are usually our wants and what we think as "needs".

I just find it really amusing to see myself getting stuck up with all these things too, always getting blessed by the service, giving myself a prayer commitment, surrendering unto God and all the cycle.. and when it comes the next day or week it all boils down back to the same old routine.. it is as if i have travelled to heaven to meet God and come back down to earth again..

Things i always do(and by order too):
-Complain
-Sleep
-Eat
-Say grace
-Study
-Talk to friends about some crap/jokes/teachers/each other?
-Get angry?
-Come back home, stay in front of the TV/Computer
-Nap
-Use the computer again
-Mother nags(tell you more later)
-Gets frustrated
-Quarrels(i will shout back..NOT A GOOD THING K?)
-Cold war
-Start studying/ doing up homework
-Sleep

I mean that really my mundane life, my REAL life at home. I got to admit i haven been doing my Quiet Time or even bother to just pray a little. Well, i have so called "quarreled" with God.. and can't seem to just speak to Him, face Him or even surrender..

Its kind of weird actually, over these past weeks.. He has really shown me how to self-control, see things more clearly and to even learn how to Give Thanks(one thing i TOO don't really do or understand)

He has clearly shown me through the happenings in other's life, taught me to encourage(one thing i'm really weak at) to even Give thanks for them.. for my own..

Its really funny, i get to see all these things happening on myself MUCH clearer now.. such things as i used to view my mom.. SHE REALLY NAGS AND SCOLDS sometimes just KILLING ME with words.. but.. now i see she cares, she hopes for the better, she is HELPING ME TO BE FOCUS TO STUDY.. to just even get away from this computer haha.=P i really give thanks for such a supporting family i have..the family that is uniquely created JUST FOR ME.. thats how SPECIAL i am to God!

And in school, many of you know i have LOADS and TONNES of COMPLAINS and faults to find with my teachers/ sometimes friends... But now.. what i see is a Hope.. a big Hope that would set these Zhenghua Students and Teachers in their eyes.. that they would remember for this Hope forever at the little corner of their hearts, whelther they want to accept it or not.. n that Hope is Jesus..

I was so blessed by my classmates making fun of me being God/Jesus/Priest/Pastor.. Not that i want to be those but.. its just show how much they want to know the Truth.. the Love that they just can't buy or find from anyway.. =) thank you 4E4=)

My teachers.. suddenly giving their best wishes for us.. to work hard.. saying sometimes we have Just Do It! Instead of stoneing away, planning or giving up..

One thing that i agree with my teachers, that is we SINGAPOREANs.. we like to COMPLAIN.. and we like to 'want this, want that..' so we end up being busy with that and have neglected for what is more IMPORTANT..

Had my O'level english oral on wednesday.. didnt really did what i had expected and planned during the REAL practice in the examination hall.. but i really give thanks.. (wana know more ask me..)

Also had my POA test, and Social Studies test today.. it was ok.. but.. i guess i sometimes forget to give thanks for the EXAMINATIONS helping us to be more CLEAR after all the "lectures"

Finally, i haven done this before.. give thanks for ALL my teachers..and even friends..

Let us learn to give thanks ya? =)

David's Psalm of Thanks
1 Chronicles 16:7-36

7 That day David first committed to Asaph and his associates this psalm of thanks to the LORD :

8 Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; make known among the nations what he has done.
9 Sing to him, sing praise to him; tell of all his wonderful acts.
10 Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.
11 Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
12 Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced,
13 O descendants of Israel his servant, O sons of Jacob, his chosen ones.
14 He is the LORD our God; his judgments are in all the earth.
15 He remembers [b] his covenant forever, the word he commanded, for a thousand generations,
16 the covenant he made with Abraham, the oath he swore to Isaac.
17 He confirmed it to Jacob as a decree, to Israel as an everlasting covenant:
18 "To you I will give the land of Canaan as the portion you will inherit."
19 When they were but few in number, few indeed, and strangers in it,
20 they [c] wandered from nation to nation, from one kingdom to another.
21 He allowed no man to oppress them; for their sake he rebuked kings:
22 "Do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm."
23 Sing to the LORD, all the earth; proclaim his salvation day after day.
24 Declare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples.
25 For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods.
26 For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the LORD made the heavens.
27 Splendor and majesty are before him; strength and joy in his dwelling place.
28 Ascribe to the LORD, O families of nations, ascribe to the LORD glory and strength,
29 ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name. Bring an offering and come before him; worship the LORD in the splendor of his [d] holiness.
30 Tremble before him, all the earth! The world is firmly established; it cannot be moved.
31 Let the heavens rejoice, let the earth be glad; let them say among the nations, "The LORD reigns!"
32 Let the sea resound, and all that is in it; let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them!
33 Then the trees of the forest will sing, they will sing for joy before the LORD, for he comes to judge the earth.
34 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.
35 Cry out, "Save us, O God our Savior; gather us and deliver us from the nations, that we may give thanks to your holy name, that we may glory in your praise."
36 Praise be to the LORD, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting. Then all the people said "Amen" and "Praise the LORD."

My Birthday?

2006-08-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

My Birthday? Over?

Get your own countdown at BlingyBlob.com

Quote of the day(10th Aug)

2006-08-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day(10th Aug)

It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not.

By James GordonMedical Doctor

guess that really explains more clearly why certian things are like tht for you and especially for me.. so lets try together alright.. giving and taking..=)

2006-08-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

Quote of Day(9th Aug)

All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. The only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won't succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy.

by Wayne Dyer

and.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! i am SOOO PROUD TO BE A SINGAPOREAN!! thank you Jesus! =)

LOVE YOU SINGAPORE!!!

The “One” Eyed Mama

2006-08-08T18:57:00.000+08:00

The "One" Eyed Mama

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment... My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell...Anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment.

There was this one day during elementary school..It was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. how could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out, the next day at school... "your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so, I said to my mom, "mom.. why don't you have the other eye?! If you're only gonna make me a laughingstock, Why don't you just die?!!!" My mom did not respond..

I guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time.. maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but i didn't think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye.

So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.. Then i studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, i got married. I bought a house of my own. then I had kids, too.. Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when..

What?! Who's this?! ...it was my mother....still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And i asked her,
"Who are you?! I don't know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!"

"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared out of sight. Thank goodness... she doesn't recognize me.. I was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went. After the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity

There, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

My son... I think my life has been long enough now.. and...I wont visit Seoul anymore...but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.. and I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school....for you...

And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldn’t stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye… so i gave you mine…I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did.. the couple times that you were angry with me,..I thought to myself, 'It's because he loves me..'

My son... oh, my son... I don't want you to cry for me, because of my death. Please don't cry...my son, I love you so much .

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Just a Joke..(no offence)

2006-08-08T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just a Joke..(no offence)

Hey! this is just a joke i came accross, thought it would cheer this place a little..and really, no offence to the muslims..

Back ten centuries ago, the Pope decided that all the Muslims had to leave Jerusalem. Naturally there was a big uproar from the Muslim community. So the Pope made a deal. He would have a religious debate with a member of the Muslim community. If the Muslim won the debate, all the Muslims could stay. If the Pope won, all the Muslims would have to leave.

The Muslims realised that they had no choice. They looked around for a champion who could defend their faith, but no one wanted to volunteer. It was too risky. But they finally picked their representative, an old Mullah who unknowingly agreed without knowing what he was getting himself into. He agreed only on the condition that neither side be allowed to talk but communicate by miming. The pope agreed.

The day of the great debate came. The Mullah and the Pope sat opposite each other for a full minute before the Pope raised his hand and showed three fingers. The Mullah looked back at him and raised his middle finger..

The Pope waved his fingers in a circle around his head. Mullah Nasruddin pointed to the ground and stamped his foot.

The Pope pulled out a wafer and a glass of wine. Mullah pulled out an apple. The Pope stood up and said, 'I give up. This man is too good. The Muslims can stay.'

An hour later, the cardials were all around the Pope asking him what happened. The Pope said: "First I held up three fingers to represent the Trinity. He responded by holding up one finger to remind me that there was still one God common to both our religions. Then I waved my finger around me to show him that God was all around us. He responded by pointing to the ground and stamping on it, showing that God was also right here with us. I pulled out the wine and the wafer to show that God absolves us from our sins. He pulled out an apple, reminding me of the first sin. He had an answer for everything. What could I do?"

Meanwhile, the Muslim community had crowded around the Mullah in total astonishmen. "What happened?" they asked. "Well,"said the Mullah, "First he said to me that we Muslims had three days to leave Jerusalem. I told him up yours. Then he told me that this whole city would be cleared of Muslims. I said none of us leaving this land!"

"And then?" asked a woman.

"He took out his lunch and I took out mine," said the Mullah.

Quote of the day

2006-08-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character: it becomes your destiny.

By Frank Outlaw

Me!

2006-08-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

quite true le.. haha.. =P

How to make a Jan

Ingredients:

1 part competetiveness

3 parts crazyiness

5 parts leadership

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of emotion and enjoy!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com
got it from Jon Q's blog.. hehe.. thxs jon.. haha.. =)

Coffee Anyone?

2006-07-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

Coffee Anyone?

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see”. “Carrots, eggs, and coffee,” she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take
an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, “What does it mean, mother?” Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity - boiling water. Each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

“Which are you?” she asked her daughter. “When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?”

When I Grow Up I Want To Be.

2006-07-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

When I Grow Up I Want To Be.
By Angelina Gutierrez

When I was a kid I used to say, "When I grow up I want to be." Then while I wasn't paying attention, one day, childhood snuck away from me and suddenly I found myself up. I wasn't as prepared as I would like to have been. Who am I kidding? I wasn't prepared at all. I looked out into the world and for the first time I took notice of the pressures that lay before me. They're everywhere. Pressure to act, pressure to try, pressure to follow, pressure to become. The list is too long. Even though no one ever has to really say a word because we have enough criticism within ourselves to pressure us for a lifetime. It's true we are the hardest on ourselves than anyone else.

It's hard enough trying to be still for five minutes when drive-thru's and microwaves aren't fast enough anymore. Suddenly life has become a race and we've fallen into the trap of comparing. But to who's standard? And are standards supposed to change? Because every time I turn around the world has a new set. Loose morals. That's what they are. It's whatever feels comfortable; whatever feels good. It's being spread across the entire earth like a sick disease, and the killer? Conformity.

And then there's disappointment. It likes to walk by your side when you hit that age when you're not where you pictured yourself to be twenty, ten, or five years ago. That's when you have to learn to ease up on yourself and make contentment your friend because no matter how many years we live, we still have a while to go. And no matter how many struggles, sufferings or mistakes we go through we still have a lot more of those coming our way too. So after all is thought through you reach a point where you realize that "In God We Trust" really wasn't just a nice quote to decorate our money. There were those that believed it to the core of their being and died knowing that no matter what changed, their God never would.

I'll be turning thirty in 51 days and yesterday someone asked me, in all seriousness, what I want to be when I grow up. At first I laughed at the feeling I got of being a kid again. I haven't been asked that question for about fifteen years. It got me thinking though. No matter how many times I didn't meet my expectations there's always been room for another chance. I've just recently come to realize that age is not the issue. The issue is we can be whatever we want to be, and we can start today by working towards it, never conforming to what we don't believe in and putting our trust in God.

THE GREATEST ADVICE -Rick Warren, the Purpose Driven Life*

2006-07-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

THE GREATEST ADVICE -Rick Warren, the Purpose Driven Life*
Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough &Â knowÂ better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family, or your ideals.
Don't stagnate! Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your
Â Â Â Â Â biological clock is ticking.
Â Â Â Â Â Learn a new skill.
Â Â Â Â Â Find a new friend.
Â Â Â Â Â Start a new career.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paidfor some of life's more hasty decisions.
Â Â Â Â Â To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
Â Â Â Â Â To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
Â Â Â Â Â To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Â Â Â Â Â Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.
To make yourself happy, pursue your passions & be the best of what you can be. Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits,and dangerous liaisons.Â Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.
Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for yourfamily. Be true to yourself. Don't commit when you are not ready.Don't keep others waiting needlessly.
Â Â Â Â Â Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Â Â Â Â Â Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Â Â Â Â Â Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.
Â Â Â Â Â Write poetry.
Â Â Â Â Â Love Deeply.
Â Â Â Â Â Walk barefoot.
Â Â Â Â Â Dance with wild abandon.
Â Â Â Â Â Cry at the movies.
Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care ofÂ you.
Â Â Â Â Â You light up your life.
Â Â Â Â Â You drive yourself to your destination.
Â Â Â Â Â No one completes you - except YOU.
Â Â Â Â Â It isn't true that life does not get easier with age.
Â Â Â Â Â It only gets more challenging.
Â Â Â Â Â Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Â Â Â Â Â Pursue your passions.
Â Â Â Â Â Live your dreams.
Â Â Â Â Â Don't lose faith in God.
Â Â Â Â Â Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!
When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion ofyour life that you'll never get back. Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spelllove is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do orÂ provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves*
God is good all the time!
In Christ Alone
In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand
Chorus:
In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victoryLet it be said of me
My source of strengthMy source of hope
Is Christ alone
In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercyCould reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord
Chorus

Burdens? God take my all..

2006-07-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

Burdens? God take my all..

Don't wait.. unload each burden to the cross.. load in the Love from that cross..

Have you ever felt so burden by the lies from satan.. that idot.. i do.. although sometimes we know that these are lies, but its just too hard to reject these.. and just give it to Jesus..

For me, personally these lies are like i just can't get myself to study, sometimes control my actions and temper.. and worst of all is the burden of being such a burden to others.. to people.. i understand that people do encourage me and stuff.. but.. what i feel is that.. they are only expressing encourage but not truely in hearts.. i feel such a burden..useless..

But i do know in my mind that God is working, and beside me.. helping me through.. but all i want to ask is that i can know this in my heart.. that i may unload these to Him.. to be able to sing this in my heart ' God Be My All!'

Help me.. pray for me.. thanks..=)

Prayer Request:

-To be able to let God be my All..

-To Let God Work in me.. if He can move mountains, move me..

-Trust between Him and me..

-To be able to release these to Him, to be able to load in Love from Him..

-To be able to reject lies, and believe the Truth..

-To have self-control and discipline

-To be able to study

Scars? oUcH! i got one..

2006-07-16T00:14:00.000+08:00

Scars? oUcH! i got one..

oh.. scars..? ya.. i got one.. thanks for your concern people.. =) ya.. story goes like this.. on a thursday night.. it rained all of a sudden(not drama k.. its for real) i like.. rushed to the kitchen to like keep the cloths..(SO GOOD BOY RIGHT? AMEN?!) then came my mom.. who helped me.. i was about to fall back already, still knowing the oven was behind.. so i held onto the gala.. but my mom.. PULLED IT.. i fell back.. and touched the oven and oUcH (Sound for real: ZEEEEE) i was like PAIN UH.. then.. ya lor.. thts how i got the oUch SCAR.. haha..

mom then gave me a LOVING CARE TO IT..(jealous boys and girls? *winks*)

not my mom's fault actually.. didnt blame her.. its not anyone's fault actually.. its just an accident.. haha.. oh wells.. anyway the scar did me good.. MADE ME MORE MAN.. haha.. okok.. JUST JOKING..

and oh ya.. do still keep me in prayer.. have been feeling the pain inside.. and abit of numbness.. yup thanks people!

But guess.. my point isnt only the physical scar.. but the scars in my heart.. no matter how small is it.. it'll be there.. and is very painfull.. sometimes theses scars get so serious that it turns numb... no feeling..

talked to galvs today about my scars made by life.. it was scars that lead me to so called hate God.. to break my trust in Him.. and for many month.. i just took a step back away from Him.. making my distance even further.. i just couldnt accept that He would put me into this kind of life.. with all the garbages that satan throws at me.. its really a kind of life i find such a burden to live for..

but one thing that galvs reminded me was... a Grace.. a Love.. so far greater than all these things, trials and burdens.. he asked me was i built on gifts..blessings.. or was it the rock of my Salvation..

man.. that hit me.. to really remember why was giving my life to Jesus.. and i thought to myself that it was for that Love.. it was for Grace which was all done.. just for me.. on one day.. to lift these burdens, these bags of garbage.. and nailed it onto a cross of Calvary..

and.. i realised at that moment.. i was actually still blinded.. was tricked by the devil.. i was tricked to hold on to my past blessings.. and not the Grace of God.. not Agape... and worst of all i compared them.. and blamed God.. like why this.. why that.. why this is happening to me.. if there is truely a God in this.. why does He have to take these blessings away from me.. why am i here to burden.. to get burden.. why cant i be a blessing? God how can You be so cruel to me.. my heart trembles, my life shakened..

this were all questions running into my heart and mind.. and it was just sooo.. difficult just to worship God.. just to say He is faithful.. just to say how great He is..

through the weeks and months.. one area is studies.. its O'level man.. why isnt He providing help for me just like last year.. where's the hope i need.. dissapointments with my results.. from 15points to like 25points?! what is this.. what is happening..? i asked.. apart from lazyness.. i see that God isnt THERE FOR ME.. so what the bible is a lie?

No! its just simply i haven been seeking God.. but instead i seek His blessings.. and this is just a wake up call for me.. Thank You God! thanks galv! Question.. Am i seeking God or His hands..? Have i been surrendering? Was it there all along, just that i have just come to realise it?

It is true.. i seeked His blessings.. not Him.. i depend on myself and neglected lifting it to Him.. believe more about myself than in God.. its just so I.. just like SIN with the middle I..

All i can do now is to surrender.. to pray.. not about me anymore.. but rather its All About Jesus.. the Faithful one.. the Grace given.. the Agape that i received..

i guess.. all you people can help me is to pray for me.. let Him take over..
Thanks..=)

Believe Me Now
Written by Steven Curtis Chapman and James Isaac Elliott©2004 Sparrow Song / Peach Hill Songs / BMI / Admin. by EMI Christian Music Group Publishing / Cabinetmaker Music / ASCAPPsalm 119:89-93 / Isaiah 41:10 / Romans 8:31-39 / Hebrews 13:8

verse 1
I watch you looking out
Across the raging water
So sure your only hope
Lies on the other side
You hear the enemy
That's closing in around you
And I know
That you don't have the strength to fight
But do you
Have the faith to stand and...

Chorus
Believe Me now
Believe Me here
Remember all the times I've told you loud and clear
I am with you and I am for you
So believe Me now
Believe Me now

Verse 2
I am the One who waved my hand
And split the ocean
I am the One who spoke the words
And raised the dead
And I've loved you long before
I set the world in motion
I know all the fears you're feeling now
But do you remember who I am ?
Do you...

Chorus
So believe Me now
Believe it's true
I never have, I never will abandon you
And the God that I have always been
I will forever be
So believe Me now

Verse 3
I am the God who never wastes a single hurt
That you endure
My words are true
And all My promisis are sure
So believe me now
Oh, believe me now

A Life Journey with God

2006-07-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

A Life Journey with God

An email from my friend, and a reply back from me... its not just for him or me.. but i thought it'll be good for everybody, especially O's, N's, PSLE students and STUDENTS in the world.. haha..
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From: "jun hao ong" - A camper from SUPA camp(P.6)

Subject:Studies

hi, how r u going on with ur sch i kind of find it a bit boring 4 me as keep studying 4 psle... hope u r doing well bb

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Well.. sometimes life will get really boring..sometimes lonely.. but we all have our respondsibility..that which is our studies, whelther a not there's PSLE, or N' level or O' level.. remember i asked you once abt studies.. and if.. i were to take away your stuies.. you would be REALLY EVEN BOREDER(if there's such a word..ohwells..) haha.. well.. i believe if you set yourself focus on Jesus our God.. there would be a whole lot a purpose and meaning to study, to move on..

I'm sure.. sometimes.. you would just feel like.. man.. school is SUCH A BURDEN, such a BORING thing to do.. well.. but if i were to leave you with no studies.. for the first two weeks.. you would have alreadyed tire yourself with many things that you would want to do.. but after the two weeks? you would be STUCK at home LOST with what you wana do..(just like your holidays, if there weren't any school) and then.. you would COMPLAIN abt being BORED to DEATH.. is like TOTURE..

Well.. i guess its time for you to change your mindset.. change your focus.. turn your focus of YOU HAVE TO STUDY FOR PSLE.. to I WANA STUDY FOR JESUS, TO GLORIFY HIM.. and then..you study and depend on Jesus.. =)

And that is the big difference between a Christian student and a non-christian student.. that is.. we are missionarys with a mission that is to be an example and we have a God who will and wants to bless us! how about that man?

'In this you greatly rejoice, through now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith(in Jesus or yourself or on the things you have to do?)-of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire- may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith...' 1 Peter 1:6-9

Just remember.. His Agape Love for us.. for you.. for me.. remember what He went through, all just for you..=)

Come let me pray for you over the email =) 'Dear Jesus, i want to pray that you would speak to Jun Hao.. Lord i believe sometimes we begin to lose our grip on You.. and that we tend to rely on ourself, telling ourself there is smth better out there for me.. this life is so boring.. so useless to me.. and we like to question WHY AM I HERE? Why must i study? Why must i even go through such a stage of life.. cant i just skip it.. and move on.. Lord, HELP US.. help Jun Hao, me and whoever is thinking that way.. help us to understand that God You have a purpose for us.. a plan behind everything You do.. all i can ask is for strength..

Lord.. we are all tired.. we all have lost that grip.. bring us back.. help us.. let it be our prayer to ask for strength.. let it be a Love that would flow into our hearts and change our heart as i pray.. GOD WE NEED YOU, GOD HELP US.. help our focus to be back to YOU again.. let it be.. i want to glorify that God who has given me hope, a meaning to life.. a purpose to move on..
and for those who still cannt receive that Agape Love.. i pray in the name of JESUS that you will BREAK that HEART to be able to RECEIVE His LOVE!

God.. let my sec 3 experience be shared with everyone reading this, even me LORD.. show us about Your greatfullness and that meaning.. that Agape Love that helped me focus onto you.. till we would all understand that it is the process of our journey that counts.. that would give us much more joy and meaning than the end result.. help us see the bigger picture.. that is you, Jesus..=) And all God's children say.. AMEN!'

Just remember my last entry people about studies.. the `Tuesday, October 11, 2005'

Its not the result we should yearn for, its the learning process that we should be yearning for..Hope in God! Seek Him! Let Him bless you!

Toodles ppl! Jia You!

Being lead into His plans..

2006-05-16T03:42:00.000+08:00

AGREED! galvin.. this group would not be possible if God hadn't laid His hand onto your heart and the group.. Seeds will grow into big trees that will GROW deep in the Great Love from God!
My prayer for Your group, the Mustard Seeds, is that you people will seek the Face of God! Not the hands of God..
Psalm 23:6 'Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, O God of Jacob.'

For everyone in Mustard Seeds, i ask that you grow deep in a Relationship with the Almighty God! That you will Listen to His voice, See His works in your life, and to see the Purpose of this Christian life; letting this purpose be your call from God, His Love flowing throughout your life, leaving a Legacy of the Great Love of Jesus to this broken world..

Galvin; My prayer is that you will grow deep into this Love, expanding your expression towards His Love. My prayer is also that you will continue to pray for youths and that you will lead them to their needs; the Love of God. I proudly give thanks to the Lord for your patience, perserverance and Love you gave to His children=) Continue to do that.. Amen!

Psalm 25
1 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;
2 in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me.
3 No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse.
4 Show me your ways, O LORD, teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old.
7 Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.
8 Good and upright is the LORD; therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
9 He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way.
10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
11 For the sake of your name, O LORD, forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD ? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
13 He will spend his days in prosperity, and his descendants will inherit the land.
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied; free me from my anguish.
18 Look upon my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins.
19 See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they hate me!
20 Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you.
22 Redeem Israel, O God, from all their troubles!

Getting our focus on Jesus

2006-02-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

An email from my friend, and a reply back from me...

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From: "Justin Loh"

Subject: observations made by me!

Two men were in church when their pastor gave them an important task. Their task was to get as many people to come to church as possible. These two men thought about it for a second and the Lord gave them visions and names of many friends and family that were ready to accept Him.

On their way home, they chanced upon a close foreign friend who did not yet know the Lord. They spoke together for a while and when the subject came to inviting him to church, they spoke, not without faith but without all their faith. The Lord began His work on the man through the little faith. Suddenly, the devil sent the two men a sudden craving for horse racing, for the devil knew that both men enjoyed the sport greatly. Sure enough, the two men forgot their intentions for inviting their friend. They started on the topic of horse racing before their friend had mad his decision, which was a yes. The two men began to persuade their foreign friend with the new found enthusiasm, much more than inviting their friend. This sudden outburst also caused their undecided friend to forget his reply. The man forgot about the invitation to church, defeated the Lord’s work and began to follow the two men in their sport.

Now, I say to you. Preserver in the Lord’s work or the person you are fighting for might be lost forever to you.

Luke 17:6
He replied :” If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, “be uprooted and planted in the sea, “and it will obey you.

The two men, lost concentration in their task, not because of the work devil but because they allowed the temptation. God was already working on their friend using their little faith.

Two months later, their friend passed away and was lost to the Lord forever. I’m writing this not because of condemning horse racing but to show you of the senselessness of men and the selfishness that causes him to sin. How can you be enthusiastic for your own personal pleasures and not be in the Lord’s work for you? Be happy and excited in the work that God has given you for he knows that you can do this task. It was given to you because He knows that you can do it. Remember Pastor says that the holy sprit will be doing the work for you? Two whole rows! That’s many people! But do not be disheartened, even the children of God can accomplish this. God has told me that it is not the amount of people that you have brought to the Lord:

1 all has been done by the Lord
2 the real sum is about the number of people that you have saved from eternal separation.

i pray that you will be reading this many times and that you will share with many of your friends. remember it is that holy sprit that truly convicts. Share not pass on this is not a chain mail! God gave you a mouth for a reason!

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I totally agree with your observation.. in all churches in the world.. i guess we humans's are so "Two-faced", like having to seriously pray or worship during service or maybe even for a few days... and after so.. we go back to our daily lifestyle.. Its kina of happening around us.. and little faith is not the only thing that causes all these distractions coming along.. its our centre of focus... have you really seat down and really take time to reflect on questions like: what r the things u doing now? Are you really leading a Christian life just by doing ur QT? So far are you heading to God or ur things in life? Is your focus/ aim on God? And finally.. if u were to see God, what would He say to you? What do have for Him to be happy?

I guess sometimes.. even in my own walk.. i don't really seat down and reflect on all these Questions.. and sometimes get so caught up with 'Activities' either in church or work.. like what i said earlier.. we tend to go back to our routine again.. getting angry at work.. scolding ppl.. hating ppl.. sometimes even saying.. "Why is a Christian life so difficult to walk..Why isnt God helping me.. din He say He would? Lets just give up.. being a non-christian is so much easier.."

Look at tht statement.. have you even thought like tht? Lets just say.. you miss the whole point of walking with God...

A Christian life=Having a relationship with God=Being most satisfied in Him, making Him most glorified

Guess tht could really answer to most of your Questions.. get right with God.. get on your knees to pray.. seek God! Use His Strength not yours! Get out of situations or friends who you know.. will pull u away from God.. Lastly.. Go back to Him.. He is always waiting with outstretched arms..

Reflection (Part2)

2005-10-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

Its not the result we should yearn for, its the learning process that we should be yearning for..Hope in God! Seek Him! Let Him bless you!

Yes.. Back again! haha!.. guess i just want to answer some FAQ,

Eh why you haven't post like for so long?
Well firstly i have been wanting to post, and have a pack load to share and encourage.. but i have been doing my QT and God has really spoke to me about being focus. And well.. Secondly, i don't really have the time. Thirdly, i only want to share about what i have learn and encourage people. I will changing my blog skin too in 4 months time, so stay tune.

But really learn that sometimes, we are really too proud, not that i observe others. But God has show me a lot about prayer, prayer is not something for us to ask for blessings. If you have been thinking like that.. YOU really miss the point! Prayer is really about surrendering, like what the bible says!

An example is exams, two ways we will REACT, the first way is that we ask God to help us and blah blah... The second way is when we keep saying.. aiya.. fail lao.. going to die.. Picture this with me.. isn't that being too proud to surrender? When we ask God to help us in our exams.. we'll then either go and play or go study like crazy.. but we didn't surrender... even if we did not really work hard or even if we did.. WHY AREN'T WE ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS AND NOT SURRENDERING!!??

Do you know that we always ask for the result and not the learning process? If we go by the second way, we are trying to say God can't save me man... and man! That's totally WRONG! The problems lies with us.. we are NOT SURRENDERING! God's heart is really wanting us to Hope in Him! To SEEK Him! So that He can Bless You! Yes YOU! No matter who, what, where, and even how you are!

Don't think that only during the respond time, that you surrender. Because respond time get you no where, its PRAYER that helps you to surrender!
God is a God of Grace, Love, Power and Glory!

Question here is: Where are you in your walk? Have you surrendered your all to Him?

For those who are having exams read this..
Its not the result we should yearn for, its the learning process that we should be yearning for..Hope in God! Seek Him! Let Him bless you!

DIFFERENT LIVES

2005-08-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Covenant Evangelical Free Church

Acting Workshop

presents

D I F F E R E N T L I V E S

an evening of short plays

An estranged husband.

A desperate wife.

A lonely woman coming to terms with her new-found faith.

A born loser walking down her own memory lane.

Four different people.

Four different faces.

Four different coping mechanisms.

Four different lives.

Saturday

27 August 2005

7.45pm

Chapel, Level 3

Covenant Evangelical Free Church

10 Jelapang Road

Singapore

We would love to have you with us.

Please be seated by 7.30pm.
The program will start punctually at 7.45pm.
Light refreshments will be served after the show.

Reflection (Part1)

2005-07-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

Worship
Session One: God's Presence(Part One)
Psalms 27
Verse 1 to 6: Talks about the root of our foundation, about in trouble times(war times). Who shall we hold on to? God! In times when the world is against Him, should we still hold on to Him? Yes! As He is the war master, He has already won the battle and will cover us, hide us in His hut, set us up(rise us) upon the rock.
We should stand firm in Him in all times, and know that He will be there to help us. We shouldn't also just sit there and do nothing. STAND UP! Lift up your heads, and see His wonders and Glory filling the earth. Shout His praise with joy that you offer! And to Truely rest in Him, not thinking, not planning, not STRIVING AT ALL but REST! Many of us, try to expect something of His presense, you can though only if you have TRUELY SURRENDERED EVERYTHING in your heart, mind and soul! Having nothing but the Spirit of God!

Is life going to be back again?

2005-06-28T15:34:00.002+08:00

For some it maybe yes, for others it maybe no..its changed... School's started again.. exams and homeworks are loading up.. but.. do remember what happen on Sunday..during Jesus Generation.. we are called to stand firm in Christ.. heard many people's comments on school..like.."wah lao... school started lao.." I mean who won't feel that way..

But.. have you wonder why God put you as a student..? And why He didn't put you out in the mission trip to "Have that Fire and Passion"? Well many of you know I just went for a mission trip.. and think that " look the Passion and Fire of the Lord is now in them".. I'll say no to that..

Honestly, my calling isn't for missions.. my calling is for Singapore even before this trip.. and I went there without expecting anything to fall on my heart... Passion and Fire..doesn't come about only in special worship or mission trips or church camps.. the passion and fire is a gift.. and it can only come from God Himself..

Look at yourself.. do you guys know that you actually a missionary in school, going as a student? Well... God has a purpose for you! And just remember GIVE YOUR BEST IN SCHOOL in every aspects of your life.. and He'll do the rest.. And its just another 3 more months of study.. it is like SUPER SHORT man! So Rock on for Him in your school and among your friends!!!

Running after You
Planet Shakers
Praise

Yeah... yeah...

Your Word is a Light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes
Your Ways I cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in Your Hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Coz I'm running after You
Yeah I'm running after You
(I...! WILL...! RUN...! TO YOU..!)

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Coz I'm running after You
Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You I'm following today
I'm running after You

Prayer Pointers..PRAY PLEASE!!!

2005-06-06T13:26:00.000+08:00

Yo..guys..i would like to request everyone to pray for Galvin's mom... she is now in the ICU room.. so.. plz.. contact me at my cellphone.. if there's any need to pass a msg or details of the situation... plz don call Galvin or Dorothy.. because we want to give them less pressure... this is also one of the request... so do call me or sms me.. if anything.. i will be kept updated on this.. so feel free to ask me...

The Prayer pointers:
"Mom and I just started this weekly dating thing not too long ago... everytuesday (and now thursdays) evening we'll go somewhere to have dinner andjust chill out... still remembered the first time when we went to Jack'sPlace... and just three days ago we met at the Boon Tong Kee chicken ricestall near her workplace... and I desire to continue that... for weeks...many years to come.

Can you help me ask Him for a miracle???...
Pray that her condition will remain stable.
Pray that she will wake up.
Pray that she will fully recover and not be left with permanentdisabilities.
Pray that she will wake up and remember our names.
Pray... that His will be done."Galvs...

So guys lets really get on our knees to pray..for him and his family..Pray for comfort in the family.. that His love will flow heavily on them now.. at this period.. pray for his mother Aunty Alice... and give thanks for the Great work that He has done in their family.. and such testimony given these years..

Am I up to it..God?

2005-05-23T03:22:00.000+08:00

'Am I up to it..'
Sometimes feeling like this come about in life.. Making life more "Chim".. but.. have we thought of God.. I mean like how He feels..

Well..for me.. i would always shelf my Quiet Time at the day.. or maybe.. don't even do it.. And usually I would feel very tired then.. and would sometimes rush through my quiet time..and find it like an extra burden in life.. but what does God feel..

Its like we(Most of us) just try..struggle to do our Quiet time and like go on with life.. and try to live life up to standard.. I guess we really got to set aside time for God..not in a unwilling or.. stuggling form.. but in a way like having it done before doing anything..or even starting our work.. ya.. just had a chat with my mom.. and she was talking about this.. and she felt that we youths or even Christian do our quiet time like a form of routine and neglected that we are doing this for Him.. or maybe some of us do..

How would God feel.. will He feel hurt.. will He try His best to tell us that He wants that relationship..?

Many of always say.. we feel God.. or we are serving God.. or we do our quiet time.. but my question is are we doing this for God as a building up process of relationship or because we are called to by parents, friend or leaders or my bible say so.. Come to think of it.. isn't life very stagnant then..

Well like what should we do then.. For me i guess it is not so much of doing.. its the heart.. and if your heart is right.. everything will slowly go in the right place.. yup so let all really get on our knees and ask God for help.. and ask Him to change ask..ya.. so.. LETS ROCK ON FOR JESUS!!!

Closer To You
Planet Shakers
Praise

All of my life I’ve searched for this
It’s hard to explain this happiness
All of my searching left me poor
Now I have tasted, my spirit’s crying
Out for more

Everyday it’s hard to believe
The way You change what’s inside of me
I wanna get closer to You
When I think that I’ve let You down
Your open arms of love I have found
I wanna get closer to You

There was a time when I was lost
Caught in a world of selfish cares
But when You found me something changed
My eyes were opened, now I will never
Be the same

2005-05-09T13:22:00.000+08:00

'GOD Where Are You..'

2005-05-06T02:50:00.000+08:00

Where's a God when you need Him? Where is Hope? Where is Joy? Where am I?
Ever felt like that..

Exams are hours away.. where's God? I've been feeling like that for the past few days, having questions like, 'Why am i getting sick at this period?', 'Why am i not in the study mode?', ' Why is there so many things adding on to my pressure?' and ' WHERE ARE YOU? GOD!!! '

Am i feeling tired or something.. Am i just Too Stress..
I still will say.. GOD IS FAITHFUL, BLESSED BE HIS NAME!!!
WHY? Why thank Him...
The reason being is that GOD WILL BE FAITHFUL, GOD WILL BLESS YOU!!! It's all about a test of our Faith in Him..

'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He WILL make your paths straight.' Proverbs 3:5,6
' 'For I know the plan I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a furture. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.' ' Jeremiah 29:11,13

In this point of time, are we seeking Him with all our heart.. or are we just going on with life..
Come on People! We got to SEEK GOD WITH ALL OUR HEART!!! And follow His Will, Trust Him.. BE SET FREE FROM ALL THESE THINGS GOING ON BY HIM

I BELIEVE
Planet Shakers
Praise

I heard story just the other day,
About man who gave his life away for me
Complicated yet it seems so clear
If I open up my heart, it be so near to me
I believe in you
I believe in you

I heard story just the other day,
About man who gave his life away for me
Complicated yet seems so clear
If I open up my heart, it be so near to me

I believe in you
I believe your word as set me free
with all that I am
I will live my life for you
I believe

I read a story just the other day
About the way you healed blind man,
made him sayHere I stand crying out to you
all i need is faith to see a miricale in me

I believe in you
I believe in you

Submission to Authority... The Test of Faith..

2005-04-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

Ya... you hardly hear that from me... Just got a super ugly haircut by the school.. realise.. how much I depend on my hair so bad... that I almost cried when it was being cut off... and not depending God...

Always hear from others, say to my guys... submit to authority..but have I really been submitting to them.. And always telling many people to surrender when in times of need.. and also to surrender all.. but have I..

Getting to know Xavier and Raymond more.. really helped me a lot in my growth with God.. I also remembered.. how I do things that are "unholy"( Bending rules and stuff).. I also had just visited Riverlife Church in Pasir Ris... and called myself to be a leader.. when I was crapping around with unchrist-like actions.. when I looked at my cousin Marcus leading the group, he was always being the same.. not two faced...

truly... I want to be the example.. not of anyone but God, Jesus.. But how can I... I need to REST in Him.. not myself.. realised that.. this is the test of my faith... I also realised God has put me in school for a purpose to be Christ-like... well.. all i could say..is ROCK ON FOR JESUS! Live by the Faith of God, not the Sight of the world FOR HIM.. truly do you want to be different for Jesus or the world... People need to be save... Be set apart for Him... ROCK FOR HIM!!!

OPEN UP THE GATES
by Planet Shakers

We come into this Holy place
To bring a sacrifice of praise
Bow down before you and seek your face

We sing of the mighty things you've done
Cry out to you'let your will be done
'Tell all the World you're the Holy One

Hear the shouts of praise
As they're rising up to you
Come and fill this place
As we bring glory to your name

Open up the gates and let the
King of glory in
Fill this house with praises as we
Lift our hands and worship you
Open up the doors and let your
Glory fill the earth
King of heaven we dance before your throne

King of heaven come and
Take your place
Dwell among us as we
Seek your face

Rock On For Jesus! YA..!

2005-03-10T03:24:00.000+08:00

Ya you heard me...Rock on for Jesus our SAVIOUR!
Common man.. who are we?! JESUS GENERATION! And what are some of us doing?! Going on the sian life FOR WHAT! Remember what we all learn during Web? We are place in school for a purpose..and that purpose is to ROCK ON FOR JESUS! Not to sit around and giving that sian look! Why do I even care?! Some of us thinking now.. then whats with the jumping and lifting up of YOUR HANDS?!

Let me share what i do during recess when everyone is still around... (If you know me, I love to sing) so i go around singing praises to God IN CLASS! Siao RIGHT! But who cares, let me be a siao person for Jesus! Better than the sian person for Jesus.. so ya... lets all pray for ourselves to be ROCKERS OF JESUS!

Rock of ages...JESUS IS THE ROCK!..
Rock of ages...JESUS IS THE ROCK!..

And praise God like the way we do in church! OK! Lets praise Him and pray for more people to come together with us AND PRAISE GOD!

Blessed Be The Name
Verse 1
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Pre-Chorus
Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Chorus
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Verse 2
Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Bridge
You give and take awayYou give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Humble Ourselves...

2005-02-10T02:58:00.000+08:00

Hey.. its been a long time since I blogged, ya.. anyway.. just want to give thanks for TMS, TMSC and most importantly God. Ok.. lets start the "Sermons" (Nah...)

It all began when I was chatting on msn messenger, half-way chatting, I read a msn nick which reads, 'Asks If anybody wants to share in getting a guitar 4 Galv?'...(thinking it was one of my peers), I began asking why he/she wanted to buy for him.. but he/she was beating around the bush and that really irrities me. I was chatting with him in an rude manner, and was kind of pissed off as he/she kept "keeping me entertained" and kept giving me lectures(still thinking he is one of my peers), making matters worst I began to let out my temper. And it is very very insulting to him, and in the end I realized the person was a Spider (Leader).

At the end of it, I "so-called" made it up to him... ya.. kind of werid for him to hear me out. And also remembering how I played a prank on someone which really hurt that girl not only physically but as well as mentally. I mean its very heartbreaking to see a guy play a insulting prank on a girl, as much as that the way I speak to girls and comment.

Then one day I felt like giving up my role as a WGL, because of what I have done, destroyed, hurt and set! I mean I've set a bad impression of not only myself but infront of my guys..(Wg) I spoke to Galvin about that. He explain to me that if he had step down as leader, we would be even "alive" at all.. After so I spoke to that spider which I had insulted, speaking of my attitudes to everybody, I realize that I should do no selfish actions, and be humble to consider others before myself (Philippians 2:3-4).

As well as to bear those around me, being humble, gentle and be patient, just to keep that strong bond; of peace and unity (Ephesians 4:2-3). Especially to my WG mates, and most importantly have the nine fruits of the spirit.. Love, Joy, Peace, Paitent, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-control (Galatians 5:22-23).

To TMS:
Lets work towards these few fruits of the spirits. And lets not stop praying for each other and continue to live a PDA Christian. And to be a Christ-like example in school or even at home! Amen!

School..

2005-01-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

Hey..Guys(including girls who are reading).. i sure 'MOST' of us attented the Youth service today.. right? Anyway, i sure at least 70% of you all hate school.. why? Some may ask.. the reason why >>I<< think we school is because of HOMEWORK, PROJECTS, EXAMS, TEACHERS, WAKING UP IN THE MORNING and EVEN FRIENDS as well. Just want to share my personal testimony, i used to hate school because of ALL that reasons above ^^^^^^

Ya.. and for the past 2 years in secondary school(having that perspective of thinking) i really suffered. And all these burdens i have, even caused pains and hurts to everyone around me, well in church i ALWAYS tell Matthew how much i hate school life when i see him. And in school the attitude was way worst then i could describe, and i really suffered in such a way that people started hating me. And the way they treated me was really really painful..

So during the holidays(2004), many people had been telling me from time to time again that i should change my prospective of thinking.. Well.. as most of those who REALLY REALLY know me well, will know i am super stubborn against studies. But just through a song and a verse it really changed my thinkings.

Before i review what happen, how many of us love God? Truely? It talks about us laying down our lives to God.. then followed by someone saying that, "If you are going to hate studies, you are actually hating your life, and if you are hate your life, it means you HATE GOD!"..i asked myself at that point of time, "Do i love God, Lord, JESUS?" Should i continue to hate studies and HATE JESUS, after all He has done on the Cross for me. And if God has place you and me here in Singapore, this means that we (yes you!) have a mission that has to be accomplished!

And we are so fortunated to have studies in Singapore and with many advanced technology in Singapore, countries like India, Indonesia, Thailand and even China..these countries only allow a few children to study only! So let's give thanks for our lives in Singapore. And set a Christ-like example in school and let it be NOW! YES NOW! LETS NOT WAIT NOW ITS THE TIME!!! Also remember do your best and God will do the rest and also pray for yourselves to persevere and to give all your HOPES to Him and HIM ALONE!!! AMEN!!!

First Week of School..

2005-01-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

The first week of school.. not bad.. kind of weird actually.. I really just want to thank God for putting me in a class with the trouble makers.. when I first found out I was going to be with them, in my heart and mind saying," DIE LAO LA..." Why do I have such thinking. Because of the past two years with them.. problems always occur, but now I see that things change. The were just minding their own business, this showed me that God can really change people like them. I mean I confess that I didn't really pray for them, and I even didn't even invite them for web.

I learn two things from this, one: God answers our prayer, so have Faith in Him. Two: I shouldn't judge others, and they are still God's children. Well pray for me in this kind of thing, also that I will be more patient, understanding, more loving to others and to forgive.

Ohya.. Just want to share something(Sorry Sarah), ok.. as most of you should know that Sarah came into my school, on the first day, she called to meet up with her to pray for the school, she also told me not to laugh at her. So I waited for somewhere in the school, and when I saw her, I laugh out loud (actually not loud..hehe..). Her face totally turn red(like tomatoes), the actually thing I was laughing is not her in the uniform.. I laugh at her cause she looked ok in the uniform but she said it was horrible.. (everybody must thinking LAME jan..) I know I'm lame..hehe..I mean I look worst in my uniform lo.. and with my stupid haircut I had..(my mom was there..)

I still can't believe that she is in my school..err.. never mind.. hmm.. I don't know why almost everybody in my school loves basketball, even Sarah.. when she chose my school..wah..

Also..I don't know whenever I see the Passion of Christ it is always happening in my school, why am I shock.. the fact I hate school I mean not now.. when I see the students in my school I felt like crying, because.. they have not know Jesus, and I felt so responsible.. for living the un-Christ like life, lets just say God has put this Hope in all schools, as we are the chosen ones to set a change in the world.. so guys..(girls too) lets start with our classmates, then with our schoolmates. Don't judge by who you should bring to web.. bring them all.. For God LOVES EVERYONE single ONE.. So let rise-up by doing all this things for God, I pray that you'll have FAITH, COURAGE and strength. Have A Blessed Week...

Let Your Fire Burn!

2004-12-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.. i felt myself not setting an example to others, i never control my actions or saying.. and i always different when i'm in a service or so.. how i feel like killing myself at many times.. my wish is to be an example of Jesus.. but i always miss that point when many people are around.. its like i'm suddenly set free, and can't control myself.. well many expected me to change after my camp in Sentosa... well sad to say.. i don't want a camp to change me, but i want God to change me, well this year camp theme song is 'Let Your Fire Burn' the chorus really meant to me
'Let Your fire burn, Fan a flame in me
Let Your fire burn, Burn in me, for all to see'
I want this fire to really burn in me! Not the camp but the Consuming fire of God! To burn in me.. Well just go to say in this camp, what really God spoke a message to me was 'Patient'.. that was the thing He spoke to me most.. Well got to say i really find myself irritating, bad, heartless, selfish, self centered and rude person. I can't get over this things in a second, BUT God said 'Patient my child'.. some of my group members in the camp were asking "i felt God yesterday, but there wasn't any feeling today, WHY?!" maybe some of us maybe asking this Question. Well I had that question too.. and God spoke to me through someone saying 'you no need to feel God for God to be with you, you NEED TO ACCEPT HIM FIRST!' well.. thats what i think all of us should be doing, ACCEPT HIM!, NOT FEEL HIM!. Well there's another thing i wana share but think about it..

Reflector

2004-11-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

Reflector
Planet Shakers
Worship

Since I've found Your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when I fall
You've always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start I knew
No one else could make me feel the way You do
Everyday I want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer

I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with Your Glory
I want to let the whole world know that
JESUS LIVES IN ME!!!

I want to burn with Your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know that
JESUS LIVES IN ME!!!
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This song applies to me, as in when I fall away from God, He still opens His arms to welcome and to pick me up. Also He made me feel the way He does... And nothing can or even will make this feeling the same or better.. comeon man! GOD RULZ MAN! JESUS RULZ!!!

Yoz BACK!

2004-11-08T01:35:00.000+08:00

hihi..LTNB (can ask me if you really don't know, and you want to know). It has been since october that i blog.. so long lao.. sorry.. go to say that i happy that i back on track with God again.. As i have drifted away from God ever since my holiday trip to Hong Kong. I felt so left out, alone, and even angry for no reasons. Back it was suprising that God still want me back, i mean i was such a idot to turn away from God, and He still wants me back. He spoke to me through all the prayer meetings and even sermons, don't you find it amazing. And i'll say sorry for if i have been bringing the moods down, i am very thankfull for today's cookie sampling. It was a miricle that God didn't only answered our prayers, BUT even gave us more, it totally touched me when we made more than our target. I still must say thanks to God most importantly and those who help promote, decorate and those that are going to bake those cookies. Another group is people who ordered the cookies(PLEASE REMEMBER TO COLLECT YOUR COOKIES), AND lastly to OCBC, Matt and Aunty Pauline. THANKS FOR YA GREAT HELP!!! BLESS YOU!!! BY333...

You Are My World

2004-10-13T01:52:00.001+08:00

You are My World
Hillsongs
Worship

My Father I adore You
More than anything my heart could wish for
I just want You
And Jesus, my beloved Saviour
Everything i have i owe to You
I owe it all to You

And angels come and adore You
And we Your children worship You

You are my World, You are my God
And I lay down my life for You
You are my Lord, The One I Love
No one could ever take Your Place

And Everything I have
I give to You my Lord
The One I live for
I live for You
And all my Days are GIFTS from You
I pray I'D use them as You want me to
Use them for You

Look Back To The Cross..

2004-09-13T14:59:00.000+08:00

I just read someone's blog. The person is my SU(Scripture Union) friend, she reminded me of the cross and a verse John 3:16 and Galatian 2:20.

She is kind of depress, ya..i can feel those hurt and pains, well i go to say i've been through all of that, that..that..feeling as if the whole world is weighing on you. I've learned to LET IT GO TO GOD. GOD IS YOUR ONLY HOPE, Trust Him..He'll solve all things..

Now do this..
-Think about Jesus. He suffering by those stripes of the whipe, He carrying the Cross, He On the Cross for you, saying:"It is Done!"
-Read John 3:16.
-Think about all your problems, pain, anger and hurts.
-Imagine all these bad things go into your hands, and hold it.
-When you are ready to release all these things, ask God to take it ALL AWAY.
-Now ask God to soften your heart.
-And ask God's Holy Spirit to come back into your life again and take control of your life.
-Read Galatians 2:20,21 and meditate on it.
-Thank Him, for whatever things you want to.
-Talk to your youth pastor about it.

Yups..thats all..make sure you you remember that He loves you and cares for you k?..
God Bless Ya!

Consuming Fire

2004-09-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

Consuming Fire
Hillsong
Worship

There must be more than this,
O breath of God come breathe within,
There must be more than this,
Spirit of God we wait for You.

Fill us anew we pray,
Fill us anew we pray.

Consuming fire fan into flame,
A passion for Your Name,
Spirit of God fall in this place,
Lord have Your way,
Lord have Your way with us,

Come like a rushing wind,
Clothe us with power from on high,
Now set the captives free,
Leave us abandoned to Your praise.

Lord let Your glory fall,
Lord let Your glory fall.

Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
Stir it up in our hearts Lord,
A passion for Your Name.

Help ME FATHER IN HEAVEN, I NEED YOU.. ALL MY HOPES IS IN YOU.. HELP ME LORD TO HAVE THAT FORGIVING HEART AND TO HAVE THE HEART FOR THE LOST, DON'T LET ME GO INTO THE WAYS OF THE WORLD, WITH FULL OF HATRED AND PAIN..

Back To My Learnings..

2004-09-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

..just checked Sarah's Blog..saw whats tagged on it.. i was quite pissed with Yiren, and i without thinking i quickly tagged. Well not that i'm against him or what..its..its..that times when i look at him and myself. I just don't know why i always compare him and myself..its that comparing spirit i have..ya then i went back to my blog and read the Friday Retooling Week 5(haven post), its reminds me of the times i learned, that we humans are always quick to judge, and ya..to put it i'm the person who really can't stand myself for having that attude that haven changed, and remembering Johny's saying we are all on the same side. Its a kind of thing that pissed me off, whenever people tell me what to do or showing me the right direction. I just don't mind about that, BUT i mind people saying/ telling and doing it at all into their life, example, having to tell other people not to gossip, but they themselve doing it. I learned that i shouldn't go around thinking about others wrong, and how to correct them. But as a member of the group, i been praying for everyone in my group, but i really hate to see them falling EVEN ME. I realise i have to be more forgiving and be an example of Christ.
WELL FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE...

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2004-08-31T12:52:00.000+08:00

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2004-08-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

hey... its has been such a long time since i type a jornel..well this title is very wEiRd..totally.. ya, i just read Jonathan Quek's blog, kind of funny(duh..). Well i going to copy his. (Sorry Jonathan..)

Saturday 21 August
Woke up and grab my bag, and set off for church, as i going to REALLY STUDY LIKE NEVER BEFORE IN MY LIFE. I didn't expected myself to really study, as whenever i study, 15mins later i would do something else BUT STUDY. I'm glad that i woke up(not sleeping type), or i would have die on Monday and Tuesday.

It was 9am when i reached church, with my super heavy bag full of books and papers. I went to the third floor to study(because it was quiet there and not so many distractions), well i did self-study.. and at 10am, Zai Xiang my so called "tutor", came and taught me and tested me. Trust me he is a very good tutor, as ever since he taught me, i began to understand my studies better. Well i Thank God for him, or i wouldn't be living by then. Also i still wonder how did he survive after teaching me, as all my teachers and tutors couldn't take it after teaching me. Haha.. Then i..

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Until 12pm, we went lunch together at KFC( SO FATTENING), i didn't expect to eat there, well.. i was left with no other choice but to follow. I thank God again, as i don't really know him that well and he don't really know me that well, so we began to chat with each other. When one of my CCA(drama) friend came in. I was talking to like 3 persons, and also was talking bad about this Chairman in my CCA, i didn't like her as she was kind of proud, well i learn that we should love our enermies even! So i try to avoid problems by not going for my CCA, ya.. then Zai Xiang and me went back to church. Zai Xiang had Church MuSicAl in the afternoon, so was unable to teach me in the afternoon, so by God's Grace Jonathan was also able to teach me in the afternoon. ALL OF A SUDDEN MARK CHEONG APPEARED!!! Mark and i studied first, as Seby and Jon were having some catching up with each other. Ya.. two of us were like making wErId NoIsEs at the Yellow Bench. Blah..Blah..(i shall not go into that)

So we all went down to basement to study( Because there was something going on soon at Yellow Bench) then i saw Zai Xiang and gang puting up a act about drug abuse, i went there ( KAPO WHAT@) and they were using REAL cigarets, which they rolled up(own-self make). But i find out that its just sucking and blowing not breathing in. Well... i was relieve. So went back to study...

After studying we went to Grace Sanctuary, to JAM, meaning any-o-how play the music instrument. At 6pm Mark, Zai Xiang and me went Greenridge to makian dinner, Jon went back home to have an "important dinner". So makian hao le, we go Galvin's place to study(which he didn't expect) whereas Zai Xiang is in Galvin's CG, they were having CG meeting in his room while Mark and me STUDY AGAIN!!! outside in the hall. Blah..Blah..Blah..

Sunday 22 August
Well.. web was as usual THE BEST!!! And i manage to really understand during my WG meeting before web and also during web. It was wErId for Galvin to wear so formal, Normaly he wears very simple, i found out why.. its because today we are having a "SPECIAL EVENT" called 'Wg Multiplication Ceremony'. Well also i learn about Exchanged Lives, its about us man(woman included) always ignoring God and we do Idolatry. That is one of the reason why we experience God's wrath against SIN. So i learned the reasons why need to talk about God's wrath:
1) God's Character
2)Our walk with God
3)Evangelism

Well i began studying my Geography, as i have not done so on Saturday, i keep reading and trying very hard to adsorb into my brain. I was also feeling very afraid and useless, so i stop studying and went to Bukit Panjang Plaza, where Galvin, Grace Tay, Dorothy, Clarice, Muntat, Ian and Titus were, as i figured that i was too tense to study so i need to RELAXS!!! But when i was with them i realised it was FEAR that was troubling me..well when i went back home i surrended this fear to the Lord, and felt much better after that. Then i went back to study again.

Monday 23 August
Hmmm.. today...ya..i had English followed by Maths and lastly Geography, all the paper was ok. Ya after all that papers, i went back home and thank God for what He has done. Ya..

Tuesday 24 August
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Friday 27 August
This is the day i got back my maths paper also got back my Geography mark, whooeee by God's Grace i passed. Anyway i learned on Monday during P.U.S.H U.P, that God doesn't bother whelther i can get what marks. He only cares whelther i put in that effort, well i thank Him on that.

After recess(which i don't normaly eat, because of dieting), i bought some snacks up to much which is not allowed, i ate and this backsilder saw me eating, and wanted to sabo me, so he tried to take that plastic bag out of my bag. But he couldn't so i shouted,'CAN YOU STOP TOUCHING MY THINGS!!!' i was quite pissed then, so he said,' you wana play issit' He began kicking me and smacking my things off, thank God that i didn't fight back. You all know la i super violent want. Well i keep telling myself this phrase, ' FORGIVE AND FORGET' Ya it helped a lot. Then during my art lessons, we were surpose to continue painting our art piece. While i was painting, someone place this red paint on my chair while i was sitting down and doing my work and not durturbing anyone. And it got coloured. But i didn't know who was the one who did it. So i continued, then this so called "friend of my in the past" ( A gangster) sat behind me and was playing with the paint brush with paint. So when he place the paint brush down and quickly run back, i suspected something, i look at my pants and it got the same colour as the paint brush. So i told the teacher about it. And he acted innocent, so the teacher didn't bother. Then my friend sharing the same work with me, talked bad about them. So later he came thinking i said that about him, he punched my arm hardly. It was pain at first, but later God healed it. So lesson end and i went home. I JUST surrended this very sharp pain in my heart to God. Well my message is for all of us to surrender our all to God, because He heals all this pains.. well i got to admid i caused all this, as in if i hadn't eat in class nothing would have happen... btw its 12.59pm since i typed this and now its 1.56pm so i goto go now..
REMEMBER SURREND YOUR ALL TO HIM!!!

Overnight Prayer Part ONE

2004-08-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

wah.... me SUPER tired..anyway hi to all. Ya this is a real GREAT NIGHT, as i could stay up early(6am) for a purpose, that is PRAY! And had get to know some people more. Ya..lets talk about the begining...

Sunday
6.30am: Alarm rang.. i switch it off, and went back to sleep.
6.40am: Alarm rang again..i switch it off, and went back to sleep.
6.45am: Alarm rang again!..blah blah blah.(same thing)
6.50am: Alarm rang for the FOURTH TIME!!! Finally woke up, went to toliet. Do morning stuff(not BIG..that one).
7.00am: Alarm rang FOR THE FIVETH TIME!!!!!! So glad i had exchanged my phone with Jimmy(Got 5 LOUD ALARMS).
7.15am: Expected Mark Cheong to call me.(Asked him the day before to do that)So called him and realise that he had forgotten.
7.20am: Playing with Jimmy's handphone
7.30am: Realize i need to meet Mark, at that time in CHURCH!!!
8.00am: Reached in time for 8am SunBeam.
Then Blah..blah..blah..

By lunch time, i had to be in Grace Sanctuary for the prepartion for the service worship. After all the sound checks, i realize i couldn't hear myself *ya..*, why you must be thinking..because the VERY FIRST time i was on stage singing. Dorothy said that i was out-of-tune, so i was afraid that i will sing out-of-tune. Which will bring the whole worship team out-of-tune too, i asked people who were there, Joy and Rachel, whelther they could hear me.

During the altar call, the worship team had to go up to prepare.. so when i was up, it was my very first time seeing the process, >>> Matthew asking everyone to bow down their heads and don't look around, BUT!!! Some People don't understand English, and still stick their heads up, these people i call KAPO! And you are lucky i don't put your name up here..Haha..no insults.. BUT PLEASE OBEY LA!

Ya..so Boring right! Well.. i am a Lamer, most of you should know.. ya BACK TO THE STORY>>> TOYS STORY>>>After the Web service, i went to Greenridge for fun. When i went OCBC and Yiren was there with a few others, another side i saw Jimmy, Alex and a gang of girls. Because Jimmy, my Ah Ko, was there so i joined them, then after they left i went to look for OCBC, when.. THEY'RE GONE!!! I asked around, they said they left, so i called OCBC and realize.. THEY ARE AT THE GYM, when he is suppose to go my house and rest, WHEN HE KNOWS THAT HE IS GOING OVERNIGHT PRAYER!!!

Hai..don't know what to say.. Yiren on the other hand, who sometimes sleeps when he prays during P.U.S.H U.P, also going for overnight prayer also went to exercise. I was left all alone when Galvin, Mark Lim and Sarah Chan came. AMEN!!! So i and Sarah didn't feel like going home, so we left for church to look for CHRISTOPHER!!! At Matthew's office, we left our bags there and left for Greenridge AGAIN!!! Awww.. then we saw..MATTHEW LO, blah..blah..blah..

We(Matt, Sarah, Muntat and ME of course.) went back to church to have a nap, when Matt was already asleep (5 minutes) Muntat left.. Left Sarah and me still awake. Sarah on the other hand was trying to control herself..OF LAUGHING..*werid*.. at Matt sleeping posture, i set the five alarm to 8pm. I manage sleep..for like 1 hour. So by then two of us were awake, why two you must be thinking.. because SARAH WASN'T SLEEPING AT ALL!!! *Crazy Girl*

Matt took a bath..blah..blah..blah.. when Kelvin Choo came back from GYM with Mark and Yiren. Kelvin told us some jokes and all of us went dinner..

After dinner.. I rushed to church to grab the bathing stuff.. and went bathing.. STAY TUNE FOR PART TWO..

Untiled (Not only a topic, consist of many topics)

2004-08-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

yoz to all... just read Sarah's latest entry.. bad in many ways.. as the first thing she did something like ANNOUNCING to everyone(Hannah especially) of my blog(which i told her not to) its ok for me, i don't mind as she'll pay for that price! MuAhAhAha..ya and to Galvin.. i been begging you to teach me chinese for like half-a-year and you TAUGHT SARAH CHINESE how could you do this to me!*sob sob* Haiii...And Sarah i not jealous of Christopher ok! How many times must i tell you..

Haii...don't know why you'll like that...NVM!!! I forgive you'll(but Sarah still had to pay for the price) as i learn from the puppet show at SunBeam..

SUNBEAM
People reading this..please help Joshua Wong in SunBeam Stuff, as he has to do a lot a lot a lot of things ALONE! So please come down to church during the weekdays and help him id you are free.

SONIC FESTIVAL
What can i say.. IT ROCKZ..i tell those who did't go, should CRY as it was a DAY OF FREEDOM! If you don't get what i am saying ask me in the comments..

Fake Family(FF)
Hi to all my Family members.. let me think.. i have..1 son, 4 mei mei, 1 jie, 1 didi and a father and a mother.. Wah..so confused right now.. lets see.. the most kua(good) mei is who...hmm.. i think it's Joy, haha..ya..YA! Its her anyway, I NEED MORE BROTHERS in this Family!!! So please Register DOWN HERE>> Please indicate your name, age, email and MAKE SURE YOU ARE A GUY(AND NOT FROM MY WG).

Anounment( OverNight Prayer)
Yoyo.. to all! There is this Overnight Prayer this Sunday, 8th August 2004, 9pm SHARP at Main Sanctuary, ok..

A New Stuff For ME!!!
Muahahaha.. i am going to have a new handphone for 1 WEEK, Wow thats GREAT, as Jimmy agreeded to change Nokia 2100, for his LG handphone!!! SO GOOD!!! Another thing is that he is going to give me a long sleave shirt for FREE ( BUT THIS IS ONLY FOR SPECIAL REASONS) hahaha...

Things that I am going to do..
1) My homework before Saturday
2) Pack my Room
3) Study
4) Read books!
5) Type Journel everyday to keep you updated..

IMPORTANT!
Please Leave a Message NOW!!!

Tirering Day

2004-07-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

LTNT.. Just came back from tution wahh... Super tired, imagine sleeping at 2am and waking up at around 6.45am in the morning for school, haii...why secondary school must start so early unlike primary school in the afternoon. Tried my plan..but didn't work, so in school tried to survive in class, and got caught sleeping a few times by my teacher. After school, I had to rush my lunch and run off to church to collect my art piece that I left in Matt's Office. Worst thing is that i had forgotten to write my name on the art piece..*sign*

Rushed back home to collect my tution stuff, and went for tution, wah...tired sia.. anyway its 2 hours, and FINALLY i back home..wah...shiok..

A Day Nitez At Mark Cheong's House Warming

2004-07-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

yoyo..so hows life for you all..its Great and also Bad for me..ya talk about my bad..the bad is about staying back after school for remeders from nowonwards..its horrible i tell you..why some of you might ask..as most of you know that i hate school and don't like being part of any activity. And worst thing is that i had paid for my tution and than the school decided to have remeders, so...the Great thing about now its that i finally had said i have been wanting to say to my wg (all together) i thankfull for what God has done in my wg, as many of them are starting to pick up their Bible and read. Also want to thankHim for strengthening me at times of need. Ya..back to topic..>>> It all began at church, at around 2pm, i was still doing my homework when God sent someone to help me in my homework(wahhh..), its Jonathan Quek(the 1 who broke my ruler) came to rescue. He(Jonathan) taught me quite a lot of methods in my HW(homework). So i had promised Matthew to babysit Christorpher, and after go for Mark's house. So after babysitting Christorpher, i went off with Muntat to our destination by bus, Fang Hao came along too on the way. So when we reached there, Mark and Yiren were there at the bus stop to pick us up, i was very happy and crazy when they already booked the pool(NOT SWIMMING POOL) (Hallelujah), i was the first one to play, and was against Yiren(tan tan tan ter..) and i thought Yiren was gona win me as he had some form of trainning with Jimmy(shuai ge), but i won him(thanks to the playstation game) , haha.. anyway the pro there was Fang Hao, i LOST TO HIM(Fang Hao) BY 3 BALLS!!! Haii..now i was the blur 1 as i didn't know how to go back home, and Yiren was the only 1 that live in Bukit Panjang, but he wanted to stay over, so i had to stay(thanks Yiren), ya we were just like the Four Best friends(hur?...4 Best Friends), because you forgot Jesus, His our Best friend. Ya we had fun swimming after 10pm(condo's swimming pool closes at 10pm), we great time for aout 1 hour when we were caught by the security guards and sent to the police, no lahz jk..so i bought chocolates for them(Mark and Family) when i gave it to Mark, Yiren ate like about 8 chocolates(please note that it was 1am and its Forarorosa) and its like werid to eat chocolates at 1am. Haiii...so tired gtg bb tata cya..>>Ohya Remember LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS<<>>

A Day With The Lo Family

2004-07-16T00:45:00.000+08:00

hi there, hmmm.. just wondering.. if Sarah Chan is reading. I hope so.. haha.. She'll love it anyway just want to ask you Sarah, why today i sms you about 'i am playing with Christorpher now', and you repiled 'Dad!! Why jan can play with Christopher!!' And I replied' huh???Dad???' You replied'Ya la... Wait...I tell my daddy' Can u see how this girl end her sms, haiiii...anyway BACK TO MY POINT..Ok it all started after school, i was walking to Greenridge to buy my lunch back to church to "Study Eat" (Clarice invention)i was walking to towards the yellow bench, (thinking)should i go 3rd floor or stick to plan, so to my surprise. I saw the New Life Staff having fun at the yellow bench(which i plan to "Study Eat" there ALONE), so you know i'll become KAPO and pretend to have lunch there, come to think of ya..i actually did have lunch there, they were playing and celebrating the ONE MONTH CELEBRATION THING. So after having lunch, i went to the 3rd floor to study(please note that it's not "Study Eat" but STUDY), then by now you'll should be thinking why am i studying in church and not at home, the reason is that i had to help Joshua(SunBeam) to take off the old tape that was on the floor of SunBeam Hall, so ya la..thats why i'm there..Ok ok BACK TO STORY, i studied for a while when Matthew Lo with his wife Rebbecca came up from lift, and that starts the day with the Lo Family, ya..Matt also asked me out for Dinner with his family that night, so i at first told i can't make it. (that time Matthew knew what was going the day before) so i continued doing my work and study, when Joshua came with a BAD News, that was.. that the Hall wasn't clean before we could paste the tape to the ground. Ya lo then he left, so i continued studying and doing homework, at around 3.26pm(wow so accurate) i finished EVERYTHING(Wahhh..>>STRESS<<) , i went down to the office on the 2nd floor. Then i seek Joshua to ask if there is anything we can do other than the Hall thing, sadly he said there's nothing we can do(Ohhh Man!!!). I then asked Matt if there's anything to do, so he asked me to continue with the Reflector "Extrem MakeOver" haha..so i manage to finish two stacks when Matt asked me to do the chord file thing, when i was about to finish after two more files to go(already had taken out chords on standby to get in), he said i could go home after finishing and that he has to RUSH off for a meeting(same problem'Always had to rush for meeting'). So it was still 5.04pm(thinking), i had nothing to do at home but SIT IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER WHICH TOTALLY HAD NOTHING!!! So i thought to myself to go PLAY WITH the KIDS at New Life Childcare, i rushed down(thinking of Christopher) and was searching for Christopher when i FOUND him. Hahaha i was playing with him and he was telling me what had happen and also how much he missed me(Ohhh...SO CUTE!!!) me too was missing him BADLY because i haven't seen him for 2 WEEKS!!! Its very long, and then i thought to my since i finished my homework. I could go with them for dinner ya...(Muahahaha..Sarah should be jealous by now)..so i sms Matt and also called him, but..no answer, so i waited until 6.53pm when FINALLY God Blessed me by senting Matthew down and picking Chris up. So when Rebecca came, we left for Matt's car, it was a bit scary for Chris to go in a lift(he scared of lifts noises). So in the car Chris was asking for his scheldue on eating and in the car he was sososososo afraid that we are not going to eat that he cried, so Matt said:" Chris, don't cry Daddy is going to bring to eat." When after that sentence Chris started asking for his scheldue again..haha...so we went Macdonals to have Dinner, ya lo thats about the interesting part of this day..ok by3 got to go now its late and I HAVE SCHOOL tommorow, ya Plz leave your Comments here, right here, Only Here\/ ok by3..

God is REALLY WORKING!!!

2004-07-13T13:29:00.000+08:00

hi..again..just want to thank everyone for reading(Not Really), joking..ya..It's a really Great Refreshening, these past two days: Sunday and Monday. Ya.. the Lord has really spoke to me and taught me. Lets talk about Sunday, ya..i responded to the alter-call, as there was a feeling of repentness, there was something stirring in my heart, i know that thats was the Holy Spirit. Then someone came to pray for me, it was Themis, ya he was praying for all the the anger, hurts and pains that i went through..i realise God is now giving everyone a Love that we can Really feel the person, that we are praying for, pain and also can see what is he/she going through. So i really want to say, we MUST treasure this Gift from Him, ya i was not really broken down on Sunday. But on the Push Up Night, we were in groups of 3 or 4, i was with Matthew and Themis, i was first to be pray for, Themis prayed for me first, while he was praying the i could feel the Holy Spirit. Then, suddenly Matthew ask me:" Hows your relationship with your father." i was Really Stunted by that, because that was what i been wishing for to share with but..couldn't..I then told him all the things..which was..so..so..so..painful..to..express..i was really broken at that time..it was the first time i..really..cried..out..so..painfully, broken, and it..was difficult for me to..express..my feelings towards my father and family..after that Matthew explain what was going on, on how he knew about my relationship with my family, he said that the Lord told him about my real Deep..PAIN, inside of me.. Then Matt told me what he is going to do, after he prayed for me, and while praying he told me think about all the Bad thing i said, done and bad thoughts about my father, i then thought of all these things coming back to me, its like the Lord shinning his Light onto all these Dark areas, Matt then said:"Jan, i want to imaging all these things going into your hands, i want you to take your time, don't rush. Ok." Then i saw that all of these Sins, that i have been holding on to, going into my hands. Matt then said:"Now, Lift all these to God." i saw all these going to God, i felt so free ever so free. Ya i was thanking the Lord so much about it. So i Firstly want to thank God for sending Your Son to die for our Sins, Secondly i want to thank God for telling Matthew how i feel and thirdly i want to thank everyone especially, Matthew, Themis, Galvin, Johny, Huai Tze and many more.. Also want to thank readers reading about my life, and i really Hope that whoever drops by PLEASE LEAVE YOUR COMMENTS..THANKS..

A Learning Day

2004-07-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

hi..it me again..ya woke up at around 7.26am for the 8am service..ya learned something important from the service..it was about 'The Father-Heart Of God' ya as some of you know that i am hot-tempered person and that i very very very against my father on earth..ya i just can't his attutite and ways. But throughout everything i've learned, it always apply to the way of treating your parents by honouring them and obeying them. But i the type of person who likes FREEDOM ya..i know that i already have a lot of freedom that was given by parents but i still think that that is not enough. I learned through the counselling by many many people and EVEN MY MOM. Ya after reading i realise how a father treats their children but in a different way(its a man thing), ya i learn from the story of Galvin, God gave me a glimpse of how my father has treated me and i how i treated him back. And that no parents are perfect. Now I just want to apologise to you pa of all the things i've done and mostly the way i treated you. And i thank you for what you've done for me, and all the times you want to have a father to son conversation with me which i refused. I also want to thank you mom for talking and explaining to me of what you all are going through all the time, all the problems that i always ignored. I just want to say to all of you all, even you ko, that you all have indeed change me and my ways, I WANT TO THANK YOU. Ya and for all of you(Friends and Leaders), i just need time to get use to you of that everyone is different in their own ways. Ya Matthew and the clays i do hope you will teach me and will guide to walking a straight path towards God and that i will be more forgiving and that i will REALLY SURRENDER to God. Thanks

Spider Man 2 The Movie Nitez

2004-07-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

hElLo..hello?!..hElLoOoOoO!!!..r u there(knock knock)..haha..jk..anyway its ME and my BORING TRUE STORY TELLING(zZzZzZ..)..So it all begin in the morning when i BADLY DURSTURB by my parents from my WONDERFUL SLEEP, to go to the making passport centre ya..at first we(parents and me) planned that i would go with my dad, ALL OF A SUDDEN my mom came alone. It was like i was a crimenal(don't know how to spell) that was very roughty that TWO person MUST GO with ME!!! Haiii..don't know la they(parents) very FUNNY want. When i finished updating my passport, my mom suddenly wanted to go her sister's place for "A WHILE" which was in Ang Mo Kio. At around 12pm i went to play bbal(basketball) at the bbal court nearby, i met a few of my Ah Bang friends i knew through bbal at there. So i started playing with them, while playing bbal they were saying out all the foul lauguage and they were doing things like kicking the rubbish bins and littering. So at that time i started recalling my past..even worst than them, now i was the only QUAE kid there who change after God's working on me, i was sort of sad when they were doing all these stuff that i too had done. Ya then after all of that i FINALLY reached Bukit Panjang, and i set off to church to wait for some of them going to the movie later. Ya then we went off in a cab/taxi to westmail to have dinner first then to the MOVIES.. Before that Galvin was telling me to watch out for things to learn from the movie Spider Man 2. At first, i didn't believe what he said like LEARNING SOMETHING FROM THE MOVIE, so after the movie i learn that if you have greed in your life example, money, you have to pay a price with that example, your love ones's life, ya..also i learn to give up my dreams sometimes and REALLY FOCUES on following God. Ya so now i know that EVEN MOVIES can teach you a few things..haha..and after the movie we went to the coffeeshop there to have supper and also chat, ya i really thank God for bringing us there because i got to know about Mark Lim, Jason and Joshua better, i also got to know better about God and also i learn that we are more than a reflector. Ya if u'll want to know more can ask me. Ya i also want to say that God has REALLY WORKED in my life, as things are actually very bad condition but God has taught me how to use His ways to make life much easier ya lo i go to go sleep lao..tommorrow go to wake up at 7am for 8am service..ya so if want to contact me add in your msn messenger at....... ok good day..b3e....

Friday Retooling nitez (Week 4)

2004-07-10T00:24:00.000+08:00

hihi..AGAIN..joking la..anyway..BEFORE i tell you what happen, please look up for sign boards telling you what to say ok thxs..today something happen today and thats was a miracle and also an answered prayer. That thing is that on my way down, from my Dad's car, from Jurong East(after tution, so STRESSFUL), there was always traffic jam on my way down usually, but there wasn't any traffic today(sign board:"WoW!!!Amen!"). And the best thing about the WHOLE thing is that, i have been praying for my Dad..one of them was for him to DRIVE FASTER as he only drives at 50km/h ALWAYS!!! BUT today he DROVE FASTER(sign board:"AMEN!!!"), and i manage to reach in church 15mins!!! When i usually reach church in half-an-hour..So ok..let me talk about the retooling ok(sign board:"THANK YOU!!!")..i learn that we should treat everyone whelther christian a not, i learn that we should forgive, to accept one another differences, build up relationship, to be kind to everyone, and many many many many MORE!!! I also learn the primary roles as a fellow pigrim, example all of us regardless being poor or rich that all if us are going the same journey. Ya..i also learn that i should continue bringing backslided christian and non-christian, who have already came to church, TO CHURCH. Through all this section i also learn a new word called 'Hayin' which means Life haha..I learn the most important thing is how to 'CARE' for others like how to connect with each other, how to be accountable, how to reach out, and lastly how to edify the "person's" problem through our experience. Ya and i was Truely truely encourage by both Joshua, from web, and Yiren, the WISE guy. Ya lo..i just want to thank them for encouraging me(sign board: Clap!). Because i learn and remember things from them today. Sooo REMEMBER to leave your COMMENTS HERE, RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!

tEsTiMoNi TiMe!!!(Especially for Non-Christian)

2004-07-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

hihi..today i wana share with u all what has the Lord done in me, n who is this man called Jesus Christ whom we worship, n also how can it change everyones life, this TRUE STORY is meant for u yes u, u ,the one looking around..ok enough with my crap.. it all starts when i was 4 years-old, i was born a second generation Christian(have not accept Jesus Christ). I went to church every Sunday because I was forced to come by my parents, back then i was the naughties kid, in church and in Teck Whye, that u cannot even imagine even a little bit, i would destroy anything n everything i see, n i would also go around looking for animals to throw things , beat, kick n even pour cold/hot water on it, when it did nothing(but this was only the beginning). At the age of 6 nobody, nobody, ya, did i say nobody, ya NOBODY taught me the F word, i sure all of u will know what it is ya..i started saying this word to everybody n i also say this to my family..i was also bullying people older than me even!(can u imagine that). Then at the age of 7, my best friend taught me how to steal, i started stealing at school, home and even in church(the holy place). I started a gang in school, n i was the head of all the gangsters in my gang, we always do many many many many many many many many many many stuff that i not telling u(its too EVIL to be said).. we always had gang fights outside school(near our school)(it was very fun to do all this but there was something empty inside of me that i don't know what was it), n always got into a lot of trouble with the school Principle, i at that time realize i didn't had THE LOVE, but i had many Girlfriends but they couldn't give that LOVE i wanted..i did all these things until the age of 13(sec 1)..i trasfered to another church called Covenent Evangelical Free Church.. then i got into the Youth Ministry known as YPM, i realized i had a man name Jesus who went through a lot a lot a lot of trouble just to say He loved me n even u, i then had many Questions, so i continue going to church, n the more i go the more i hear about Him of what he had DONE 2004 years ago from 2004, n i accept Jesus Christ as my personal saviour, n the MOST BEST thing about it, is that that empties in me was filled with the LOVE i have long wanted..i now to introduce this man called Jesus to u, He loves u very very very much, that He died on the cross for our sins, n He did not do anything wrong but was crusified by us, so that we will be accepted by God in Heaven n that we will be always loved by Him.. if there is something sturring in ur heart now.. say this prayer in ur heart : "Dear Lord Jesus, I admit i am a sinner and i need your forgiveness. I belive that you died for my sins on the cross. I now open the door of my life and invite you in to be my Savior and Lord. I thank you for forgiving my sins and giving me eternal life. Take control of my life from now on. Make me the kind of person You want me to be. I pray this in the name of Jesus, Amen." If u had prayed that prayer ask go to any church u want n also ask ur Christian friend to teach u more. SOoooo bye bye, tata, so long farewell.. n do visit a guy name galvin website n read more about his testimonies at www.galvin.worshipsingapore.com ok see u, plz do leave ur comments here thxs..

My Problems are SOLVED

2004-07-03T11:43:00.000+08:00

hi there..n the story continues..then during the games session ,after Pastor Ann's talk, when we were surpose to find another person holding the same piece, i help rebecca to get the person by shouting wIlDfUlLy..some of my brothers n sisters stopped me but i still continued..i also started*purposely* making animal noises..they stopped me but i continued..also when EVERYONE will jokingly gering i did jokingly gered by i was overboard ya..coz i am the wIlD kid some of u'll will know that ya lo..then Johny ask me ,after everything, :"Are u troubled?" i said yes*Honestly*..so i shared with him about what had happen in my school n home*if any of u wana know ask me lo* ya he also said to me to PERSERVER against temtation, at first i was confused as i thought to myself what has temtation has to do with this, later i realize that becoz i grow up in a wIlD brought up, it becomes a habit shouting like that, ya lo..he also prayed for me..ya thats all for today tata.. PS: plz pray for my friend called Wanfong that she come to church n come to know Christ n that she'll accept Christ ok thxs..:)

Friday Retooling nitez

2004-07-03T11:21:00.000+08:00

hihi..again ya hope u miss me *BLINK BLINK*..hehe..anyway i went for this retooling nitez n..i was late coz i rushed directly from my tution place to church but..surprisingly i only miss the first page of the session ya.. n i felt the Lord speaking to me during Pastor Ann's talk ya..one is that when we repent we should not do that same mistake, or sin, again ya.. also learn that i should also serve in a willing heart which means commitment, it applies to my school work ya..*coz i haven been SERIOUSLY studying* hehe..n that i also realise my mistake from the lies from this lier called Satan ya..i always thought that since i grow up*spiritually* by the Holy Spirit, i no need knowledge to grow with the Lord, but i realize that there must be a balance in this kind of things ya..n lastly i learned that all of us must must did i say must ya must grow with FAITH..ya n the story continues..

Jeny~Jan~Jan

2004-06-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

hihi...hehehe..tis my 1st POST..ya juz an intro abt myself..ppl say i vry naughty*sob sob* but.... tht was my last self..n nw i am in a NEW SELF*yaaaa*ya lo thts all got nth 2 say..hehe..;p